i love tgirls but i love my gf. what do i do?!?!

[guiltydreamer]

Originally Posted by deanthemachine69

Thanks for all the responses and advice guys! I appreciate it. I'm going to keep it to myself for now. If this is something I need to hide my whole life to stay with this girl then I think I can do it. I'll stick to my hardcore she male porn for now

That's how I started. Discovered transsexual images on the internet & was hooked. Thought I could control my curiosity & desire by masturbating to these collected precious pictures but eventually overcame my conscience and fear and visited an escort. That was 15 years ago and now I am utterly obsessed with transsexual m2f girls, preferably Asian. I pay escorts/prostitutes for sex whenever I can no longer satiate my desire by jerking off alone.
It's really quite pathetic in my case as my self worth is shattered and I cannot control this overwhelming intoxicating physical desire that is getting stronger with each clandestine liaison.
And they say heroin is addictive...... Fucking hell, I am surely doomed.

Guiltydreamer, you’re on a sad path by your own admission. You also admit to feeling guilt and your very nick name affirms it. You even go as far as calling it pathetic. Why would you encourage Dean, the OP, to follow the same route?
Dean, keep in mind how much of a fantasy this all is. It’s not worth destroying your relationship if it works. Be open with your partner. You don’t have to throw everything in her face: just start talking to her gradually about your feelings, be patient and take a year if you need. Exchange with her on desire, on sexuality, on the complexity of desire. Talk to her about transsexuals in a general fashion. Open doors for her first. I’m telling you: in all probability, you will be surprised…

[guiltydreamer]

Good post Dan.....