How Often Have You Already Thought In Suicid?

[GRH]

As a member of the queer/trans community, I can say that I've been suicidal in the past. And to be honest, I'll probably be suicidal in the future. It's a part of me that I've slowly learned to live with. I suffer from major depression that comes and goes; right now I'm on meds and fairly stable. But I know what it's like when life is so dark that death seems to be the only viable solution, and I know what it's like to carry a lot of repressed self-loathing. When I drink, it tends to come out moreso. I've had weeks on end where, despite a sunny and beautiful day, I can't get the thought of dying out of my head. Things like running your car into a tree at high speed suddenly become very attractive.