How Often Have You Already Thought In Suicid?

Originally Posted by Kimmy_t

Woah personal one, luckily I'm rather open.

B. Once a week, for about a decade I guess.

Why this question though, are you ok? If not you might wanna go find support from a friend, family member or even just a suicide support chat.

Sorry if I jumped the gun, just caring.

Kimsy

thank you << u are very sweet
yes,i have support from a doctor.i hope u too?

(sorry for my bad english)

[tslust]

When I was younger I used to be suicidal. I honestly can't say why; I mean there were many different factors involved, not just one thing. I would feel that I was worthless and a disappointment. I thought that everyone would be better off if I wasn't even born. I had even made several attempts. But then one day something just clicked. All those self-destructive thoughts just vanished.
I still get sad sometimes, but nothing like how it used to be.

[mustang1]

This is a tough topic, but I guess its good that someone feels its an ok place to raise it. Its not uncommon!! I suffered an episode of clinical depression after the death of each of my parents (8 years apart).

I never really contemplated suicide but I certainly learned how people do, you see the world in a much different, black and everything pointless kind of way. I remember seeing an old man in the street one day, and wondering how anyone could stand the agony of living so long.

But in each case it passed in about 6 months. The first time was scarier because I didn't realise it would pass, and I didn't have treatment. The second time I got treatment, but it still lasted 6 months, then just went away, and I've never had it since (that was 20 years ago). But I now know that if one of my family died, I'd be at serious risk of another episode.

It sounds crazy really but I look on it now as a positive, as it helped me understand what other people can suffer.

[Kimmy_t]

Originally Posted by mustang1

you see the world in a much different, black and everything pointless kind of way. I remember seeing an old man in the street one day, and wondering how anyone could stand the agony of living so long.

I so recognise that thought!

Originally Posted by LuvAmy

thank you << u are very sweet
yes,i have support from a doctor.i hope u too?

(sorry for my bad english)

Yeah I'm a more stable than about a year ago, and I'm in treatment. And don't worry about your english I understand you just fine.

Originally Posted by megawatty101

I've seen enough young people die horrible painful deaths to just throw my life away. Life is a GIFT!

While I don't really feel that life is a gift, it is a waste sometimes how people throw it away. A few months ago I lost a friend(also a t-girl) to suicide, and I kept thinking "but you could have been so happy and beautiful if you got through this!", but I do believe the current outcome might have been better for her.

Deep topic, interesting.

Kimmy