Why???

[Bionca]

Here was a letter sent to sex columnist, Dan Savage on March 26 2009. It should serve as a cautionary tale to the curious and attached. Now, imagine if the gal in question wasn't a pro? Having been on the receiving end of post-sexual "nausea" it frankly stinks on ice - particularly since I'm not a "pro" and guys love to promise the sun moon and stars to get gals into the sack.

I’m a 24-year-old guy, and I just got a blowjob from (and gave a half-assed one to) a transsexual male-to-female prostitute. It was no accident: I’d spent about two years looking at TS porn (as well as regular guys-doing-it-with-girls porn), and the whole thing seemed like a hot idea. But the plastic-surgery scars around her tits and her cock in my mouth kind of made me nauseated. I went through the motions only because I didn’t have the guts to walk out. (We both had condoms on.)

I’m not sure if I can face my girlfriend of a year. I’ve been faithful to her until now, and I feel like crying. I don’t know if it’s because it was illegal (prostitution), because I was cheating on her (unfaithful), or because I can’t say I’m totally straight anymore (cock in my mouth). I don’t know how to tell my girlfriend. She knows I look at porn, but she doesn’t know I look at TS porn—no one does.

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