I give up

[hankhavelock]

Originally Posted by Bionca

At work tonight it dawned on me that I really think lots of guys think of Trans*women as "fake" girls or "Substitute" girls, so they take us on "fake" or "substitute" dates. Also, obviously the only connecting point in all of these disasters is..well.. me. So, perhaps I just need to take a gander at what I'm sending out into the world.

Honey, I'm really sorry... and just as disappointed as you are... every time I hear this story it hurts me to the bottom of my soul. Every time I can only think: Oh well, just another guy who wasn't ready for it, who hadn't thought it through, who was just in it for own sinister pleasure, who was experimenting, who didn't know the treasure in his hands...

I know so many transsexual women even here who have the same experience over and over and over again... it's frustrating! And again and again and again they HOPE! And come with their big smiles, their sweet minds and their open, vulnerable hearts. Just once again to be let down...

It's so unfair and so ridiculous. So no words of "cheer up, baby, all is gonna be fine" from me. Because fact is that for a very long time it probably is NOT gonna be any better.

Rats...

For what it's worth, Bionca... at least I love you and adore you, and if we were in the same part of the world I can assure you that I would do all in my powers to get you. You are a gorgeous woman with a beautiful mindset! So easy to fall in love with.

And for what it's also worth... I just had a conversation with an extremely attractive and smart transsexual woman here in my town that I invited to dinner. She was almost falling off her chat chair when I suggested that we rendevous at one of the more fancy restaurants in town... "but... I'm a transsexual... are you sure it's wise for you...?".

That hurts me just as much.

I'M A TRANSSEXUAL... CAN YOU BE SEEN TOGETHER WITH ME?

FUCK!

YES, my darling, I can and will be seen with you! I want to hold you close when we stroll the main archades, kiss you in public, smile at you and yell how much I love you... my woman! May you be as proud of me as I am of YOU!

So Bionca, sweetheart, darling, get the cats, but don't get the blues... hang in there, baby, I refuse to believe that in that great country of yours there isn't a single man who can grasp your qualities... and grasp you off the ground!

You'll be a gorgeous bride!

1000000000 kisses and thoughts of and to you, my friend.

H