Interest in trans lifestyle waxing and waning

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Originally Posted by Bionca

Well, to answer your direct question - not really. I'm trans, I'm a woman, my level of sexual activity doesn't make any difference.

To answer what I think your actual question may be - I think your level of interest in trans porn and (I assume) dressing being tied to the amount of sexual activity with your wife makes total sense. For some people trans-related interests are directly tied to their sex drives because it is a fetish.

I'm curious, do you find yourself dressing more or having the urge to dress more pronounced the longer you go without sexual contact? Do you watch more trans porn during this time and then after sex with your wife watch more mainstream hetero porn?

The reason I ask is because lots of TVs I know who have eroticized the idea of being a woman or being transsexual have expressed this in ways that sound like a cycle of behavior. The longer between sexual encounters the stronger the need/urge to express the trans part of the personality is.

You pretty much hit the nail on the head. I started exploring this side of me after going a good six months without any sexual contact. I've been curious about it since I was about 16, but I didn't start getting serious about it until about a year ago.

What worries me is that I'm reaching a point of no return. While I understand we all have to make that choice eventually, I know I'm not ready for that and more importantly I know my marriage can't handle it. Perhaps I'm fortunate in that I'm bisexual and can deal with just one side of me for a while. Then again, like you said, if I go extended periods of time with no contact, I'm right back at square one.

This. sucks.