Why so many LB in thailand?

I thought I'M NOT gay,but when i see the thai-gays or shemales THAN i'm SURE i'm gay,cause( never really have a girlfriend,but I LOVE GIRLS AS FRIEND AND CUDDLE ) ..but i was NEVER in asia and ya..its sad..

..i have 3 times Sucked femboys/shemales in GERMANY(prostitute) and << this TIME i know i DON'T want another girl..it's NOT JUST THE SEX!!! << i want a t-girl for my life....

...cause i think she understand me too,cause ...i'm unlucky ..cause ..i think i'm a girl or femboy or ..i don't know... too....


..my life was everytime unlucky and i know it if i was other than the most people,when i was 8 years old.and in this age i knowing i'm for the rest of my life alone ..and NOBODY understand me !

sry