Taking a Plunge

[CreativeMind]

Maybe it's just the die-hard romantic in me, but I don't see why some of you seem so sour on this latest news, or on Bionca's guy.

I mean, Franalexes outright called him an asshole ("Sure, this asshole will be nice as long as he gets what he wants for free. Bionca, you have been used and abused by too many for too long. Break away girl, break away" ) and New Believer even questioned his motives ("The rent is cheap, the option of sex could be on the menu, and all while he'll be looking out to where and who he could be with next. I believe that if he had the option with someone else, he'd go for it." )

BUT...I would remind everyone here that Bionca's guy has taken her out in public, he's had no problem being seen with her in public or being on dates with her. Heck, it was just a few months ago that he stepped up to the plate and took her to her own company Christmas party, when she thought he might not. So, to give the guy SOME credit, he seems to be trying.

As for him breaking up last year -- when he said he was ""getting too serious" about Bionca and pulled back -- I'm going to throw this out there: maybe that really IS how he felt and he was just confused. NOT about her TS status or anything like that. His actions show he's essentially past that. So you know what? To sort of stand up for the guy, maybe back then he genuinely WAS just trying to figure out how committed he wanted to be with ANYONE at that point in time. Which means it wasn't about Bionca. The guy could have been dating ANYONE and still felt the same way. So, it really was about him coming to terms with what HE was looking for.

I mean, come on, we've ALL been there, right? You're telling me that none of you have ever been in a relationship where you just weren't sure how strongly you felt about the other person? That for various reasons, you found yourself questioning all sorts of things, so you started to act half-hearted about the relationship overall and just felt like you were emotionally adrift? At which point you end things because you really DO need some time to figure things out?

Personally, I can totally understand and appreciate his "I'm getting too serious about you" line and the decision to back off, which in turn always leaves the other person wondering what's going on. Honestly, haven't you ever found yourself in a relationship where you liked the other person more than they seemed to like you back? So you start to back off to protect your own heart? Hey, speaking for myself, I know that feeling exists -- I go through it daily with a certain ex-girlfriend of mine, where we do a constant dance around each other over "how much" we still love and care about each other. Which is certainly headache inducing since right now she's living with another guy, but still talks to me and constantly leaves me warm, romantic messages guaranteed to screw with my head continually. Speaking as a guy often baffled by romance: go figure!

ANYWAY...the way I see it, this will be a great chance for Bionca and her guy to be together and to see how close they can actually be, in terms of taking things up a notch long term. Hey, if nothing else it will be an all-new test in patience. Bionca will now find out just how much it irritates her when her fella leaves the cap off the toothpaste!

[Bionca]

CM, thanks for this post. The thing is, neither Dustin nor I were really looking for anything serious when we met. He was still in the middle of a break up and I pretty much gave up on guys having any sort of honest intentions. I was disappointed when he had his issues to be sure. After all it was just another guy who couldn't handle being attracted to me as a person, not just a kinky curiosity.

The difference is - he came back. He actually thought through his fears and got some advice from his brother, read a book, and tried to work out his feelings. He's apologized to me and is taking things as slowly as I want.

He has his faults (so do I). He is trying though. For me, this is the first time in almost 2 years that I am guaranteed that my date will actually be at the movies when I get there. He hasn't ditched me to talk to my (more attractive) trans* friends. He doesn't insist that I only see him at night and swing 'round the back (or wait outside until he gets a good look at me first).

[CreativeMind]

Originally Posted by Bionca

CM, thanks for this post.

You're welcome.
And good luck - we're all rooting for you.

Originally Posted by Bionca

He has his faults (so do I).

OH HO! So now the REAL truth comes out!
Disregard what I said at the end of my last post!!
Turns out BIONCA is the one who leaves the cap off the toothpaste, not him!!!

[hankhavelock]

Originally Posted by Bionca

CM, thanks for this post...

I agree... CM, you're right, we tend to be so f****** pessimistic....

I think it sounds swell, Mizzy B. I'm totally jealous, of course, but jealous in a good way, baby! Remember, not everybody is a HankyPanky who just said: "Ok, so gorgeous, my girl is a tranny..." Most guys have to learn to live with their own damn inner self first. Don't ask me why!

But if he is good to you, respects you, adores you, loves you, kisses you, holds your hand (in public), touches your little ladyboy ass (in public too), opens the doors for you, lights your cigarette (you probably don't smoke), pours your wine... and generally just shows his deep emotions for you, then move on, baby!

If he also blows you empty and in general believes that real women have cocks, THEN you're home free! :-)

I wish you all, all, all the best, darling, with that new bf of yours!

Megatons of kisses!

H

[merelypink]

you can be my roomie

[Titivilus]

So, I haven't seen an update in a bit, and now I'm curious.

Merelypink, having read through some of your posts, you seem to have a sensible head on your shoulders. Having said that, I know very well how little that applies when attraction strikes.

To be honest, my first reaction was the same as most. I immediately determined that this guy is not ready to have you in his life in any kind of serious way.

After reading additional posts, however, I waffled a bit. There were many good points made, most specifically that he isn't afraid to appear in public with you.

But then I looked at your avatar. If that pic is actually YOU, then I can't imagine ANYONE being bothered by having you draped over their arm. So, that got me thinking again.

What I eventually concluded (and please, I don't know you in the slightest, speaking out of my proverbial asshole here), is that he MIGHT be the "right one", but perhaps he's just not there yet. I've been down that road myself, and it's quite a grey area.

The other big elephant in the room is that YOUR instincts flagged the situation with red, and in the end, I tend to trust instincts. Nature did provide the tools, after all, and we should definitely pay attention.

So, ultimately, I'm very curious as to the outcome.

How are things at this point?

[merelypink]

hope it all goes well

[shadows]

Originally Posted by merelypink

hope it all goes well

You know, it would be really nice if you would actually check the date of a thread before you make a post. You know as well as I what has happened recently(considering how you POSTED in that freaking thread before it was deleted!!!) and I am sure Bionca doesn't need this rehashed again.