Hello from melissa carter

Thank you, fellas. I would happily post some pictures but apparently must wait until I have 10 posts under my skirt.

[Elli]

Great website Melissa!!

[lolbats]

niec site, welcome

[sesame]

To Melissa,

Kind and considerate
I’ll snuff out your soul
If I looked like a girl
I'm just playing my role

You're talented, sharp and more than skin deep. Intriguing poem, by the way.



To Elli, judging by the avatar,

Originally Posted by Elli

Great website Melissa!!

Great Boobs Elli

[sesame]

Originally Posted by Melissa

Can't get over how repulsive Courtney Love is. Life is so much better since I stopped painting or telling unfunny jokes.

Right now I'm reading your (life's timeline) story. I think its very interesting. I differ about your comment on Courtney Love though. I pretty much like her. She is such a ruthless, shameless and upfront person!

Originally Posted by sesame

To Melissa,
You're talented, sharp and more than skin deep. Intriguing poem, by the way.



To Elli, judging by the avatar,
Great Boobs Elli

Thank you, sesame. That is one of my favorite lines;. I also like this one:

Intelligent, witty
I come across dumb
If I said that I love you
I was just having fun

And this line is equally dark:

I am criminally sane
I'll make killers complain
I'm so dangerous and deviant
So simple and plain

As I continue to recover from drug addiction I am starting to write again. So look out for new short stories and poems.

melissa

[sesame]

Originally Posted by melissa

To the cat who can fly
To the bird who can walk
This may cause me to die
But to you I must talk.

You are a great poetess and an artist who can reach deep inside the pool of human emotions. I'm reading Eyes of a Woman and its making me feel. You know how to use words. You should write.
http://melissacarter.net/eyesofawoman.html

Originally Posted by sesame

You are a great poetess and an artist who can reach deep inside the pool of human emotions. I'm reading Eyes of a Woman and its making me feel. You know how to use words. You should write.
http://melissacarter.net/eyesofawoman.html

Thank you again sesame. I was hoping you might comment on my stories. My signature quote is the final line to my story, "Death to the Tranny". It references my death by electric chair and my subsequent meeting with God. It is my favorite of the short stories thus far.

I also am quite proud of "A visit from H.S.", which incorporates social critcism and a bit of my homespun doom n' gloom philosophy. I'd love to write more stories incorporating my brand of philosophy. My favorite writers are Dostoyevsky, Vonnegut, H.P. Lovecraft and Brett Easton Ellis.

[ila]

Originally Posted by TSmelissacarter

My favorite writers are Dostoyevsky, Vonnegut, H.P. Lovecraft and Brett Easton Ellis.

Dostoyevsky writes very interesting but dark stories. My opinion is that he likes probe the human mind to expose our frailties. Some passages though do require dedication to reading to get through them.

[cuminmyass]

Wow! The gold dress photos are hot! The ones with you taking it doggie position on the bed are awesome too! ...wish I could afford it....

[Talvenada]

Originally Posted by TSmelissacarter

Thank you, fellas. I would happily post some pictures but apparently must wait until I have 10 posts under my skirt.

MEL,

How many times have you been in love as a dude, and as a chick?

Originally Posted by Talvenada

MEL,

How many times have you been in love as a dude, and as a chick?

As a dude, if I ever truly was a "dude": in love four times (or my idea of love)

As a woman: in truth, one time, and I'm still in love with him and miss him so very much.

[Talvenada]

Originally Posted by TSmelissacarter

As a dude, if I ever truly was a "dude": in love four times (or my idea of love)

As a woman: in truth, one time, and I'm still in love with him and miss him so very much.

MEL,

You repeatedly say your idea of love, and I've only really heard that type of concept a few vague times, while yours is more pronounced. What is your idea of love, and is it different from the norm in a non-gendered way? If you have difficulty putting it in words let me know, and I'll put it in a standardized form that can be added to. subtracted from, and/or compared to.

You appear to be an open book, which is why I don't feel you'd feel uncomfortable being asked personal questions. So, that's why I don't feel intrusive by touching you in this matter, or if you want to squeeze me for an answer (s) feel free.

Just out of curiosity, Mel, if I asked the question in a different way: how many times in love as the feminine-role partner? This isn't a question of how many women or men or as a trans woman, and not trans lesbian or with a mannish woman. There are so many combinations out there.

It's that "in truth" once as a woman, when in your life story you say he when referring to many individuals you were in love with. It sounds like you started out as the man and male-role partner to the man and female-role partner to the woman and female-role partner.

I hope I didn't confuse you, because you appear to be extremely intelligent. Love is my favorite subject, and not many people do it multiple times.

[DEFENDER]

Dear Melissa

I have visited your site and left a message for you...hope you get it OK. (I pressed the "send" button but I am not too sure if it sent)...In case it did'nt, just want to say that I think you are a truely beautiful girl and special person and reading your bio and life story really made an impact on me. I really wish I lived in the USA, because I would love nothing more than to come to you right now and give you a really big hug. Love and respect to you.

[cockluva]

Dear Melissa, Just wanted to say hi and welcome to the site i think you'll like it here,
Your story is fascinating and touching, I wish you every happiness and love the pics, can't wait to see more.

Originally Posted by DEFENDER

Dear Melissa

I have visited your site and left a message for you...hope you get it OK. (I pressed the "send" button but I am not too sure if it sent)...In case it did'nt, just want to say that I think you are a truely beautiful girl and special person and reading your bio and life story really made an impact on me. I really wish I lived in the USA, because I would love nothing more than to come to you right now and give you a really big hug. Love and respect to you.

Wow,

You guyz are all so nice! Thank you, thank you...stay tuned for more pictures and stories. And if you liked my story you may like my writings, which are written in a similar style and contain autobiographical references.

Go to my website and click on "my writings" page.

xoxo

Originally Posted by Talvenada

MEL,

You repeatedly say your idea of love, and I've only really heard that type of concept a few vague times, while yours is more pronounced. What is your idea of love, and is it different from the norm in a non-gendered way? If you have difficulty putting it in words let me know, and I'll put it in a standardized form that can be added to. subtracted from, and/or compared to.

You appear to be an open book, which is why I don't feel you'd feel uncomfortable being asked personal questions. So, that's why I don't feel intrusive by touching you in this matter, or if you want to squeeze me for an answer (s) feel free.

Just out of curiosity, Mel, if I asked the question in a different way: how many times in love as the feminine-role partner? This isn't a question of how many women or men or as a trans woman, and not trans lesbian or with a mannish woman. There are so many combinations out there.

It's that "in truth" once as a woman, when in your life story you say he when referring to many individuals you were in love with. It sounds like you started out as the man and male-role partner to the man and female-role partner to the woman and female-role partner.

I hope I didn't confuse you, because you appear to be extremely intelligent. Love is my favorite subject, and not many people do it multiple times.

Well, honestly that was a bit confusing.

Let's keep it simple: I was a boy and lived a boy's life, and during that time fell in love with four women. Then things started changing. I felt my femininity. I realized this was going to be life-changing not some passing phase or fetish I could hide in the closet. As I began transition my preference changed too. I became very attracted to men, and was only interested in a relationship where I was the woman. No other bitch could have that role but me. And I rekindled my desire for love again, and found it with one man thus far.

Now let's not confuse romance with sex. I'm still bisexual and the right woman can still easily gain my attention. But that's about sex, not love. And my preference sexually is to be all woman to a strong dominant hetero male.

[Talvenada]

Originally Posted by TSmelissacarter

Well, honestly that was a bit confusing.

Let's keep it simple: I was a boy and lived a boy's life, and during that time fell in love with four women. Then things started changing. I felt my femininity. I realized this was going to be life-changing not some passing phase or fetish I could hide in the closet. As I began transition my preference changed too. I became very attracted to men, and was only interested in a relationship where I was the woman. No other bitch could have that role but me. And I rekindled my desire for love again, and found it with one man thus far.

Now let's not confuse romance with sex. I'm still bisexual and the right woman can still easily gain my attention. But that's about sex, not love. And my preference sexually is to be all woman to a strong dominant hetero male.

MEL,

Thanks for deciphering my trying to clarify my question, while I was trying not to be unintentionally insultive.

Having something very remotely similar in my past, that is that I'm bisexual, while only acting on the hetero side. I also was turned off and not attracted to men until I was 21.

You traveled down that road. At what point from where you started to CD to where you are now did you become attracted to men? What was your first CD experience--like lipstick only?

[Nikki]

welcome Melissa

Originally Posted by Talvenada

MEL,

Thanks for deciphering my trying to clarify my question, while I was trying not to be unintentionally insultive.

Having something very remotely similar in my past, that is that I'm bisexual, while only acting on the hetero side. I also was turned off and not attracted to men until I was 21.

You traveled down that road. At what point from where you started to CD to where you are now did you become attracted to men? What was your first CD experience--like lipstick only?

My first experience with a man was nine years old, when I was sexually abused by my babysitter. He would go on to abuse me almost twenty more times. My innocence was taken, and although damaged I found it strangely curious and exciting to be desired by a man, and to feel like a woman.

So my fascination was there right from the start, before my teenage years, and this might explain my bleak outlook. To me,there was always some darker side that could not be seen at a glance. That's heavy stuff for a 10-yr old kid.

While I did have gay encounters and knew I was bi, I didn't fully explore that part till deep in transition. My "CD" period was brief, lasting maybe a year and a half. I quickly shifted to hormones and life as a woman. There are many that choose to stop short of that, but for me it was all or nothing. That's why changing my name and becoming prominent in the community is important. There is nothing left of my former male life, it is an empty vacant building. I transferred it all over, but I understand for many they are heavily invested in their male identity.

It was never sexually-based. I was drawn to how I felt inside, the clothes were meaningless. Therein lies the difference between TS and CD. For TS it's about how we feel internally, and for CDs it's expression of their femininty through clothes and (often) acting out sexually.