Hell of a problem!! SOLDIER!

[MIfan]

Hello everyone,
I rather keep my name unknown.
So i live in Israel and im serving in Israeli forces in a special unit (ranked 3rd in the whole world of special unites).
The thing is,
Since i was 15 i used to watch porn all the time and then i began to watch shemale porn, Since i saw ana manici,Mia isabella, maria cordoba etc...
I knew that i like shemales,
Last month i had a year with my girlfriend, and i love her, but i almost dont have any sexual emotions to her.
I dont know what to do, i dont want to live in a lie, I even dont know how my freakin jewish parents will accept that...by the way, never tried with a shemale, even when i was in Amsterdam i was with my dad, and i though to try, until we passed the shemale area he looked at them and said 'yewww'.
I was like 'yeah....yew.....'
Please help me, what should i do ><
and i dont care if i will get kicked out my unit! just to stop living in a lie.
Btw im 20 years old.

[davecess]

I never knew there was a league table for special forces.

Is there a something like a special forces olympics where they all gather and compete to see who is the best? Or is there maybe a written test where all the answers are mailed to a central marking panel, maybe in Moscow or somewhere secret like that?

[aussiepride]

Originally Posted by davecess

I never knew there was a league table for special forces.

Is there a something like a special forces olympics where they all gather and compete to see who is the best? Or is there maybe a written test where all the answers are mailed to a central marking panel, maybe in Moscow or somewhere secret like that?

Although there is no "official" way to rank them, experts and the like have ranked these special forces.
Let google be your friend:
http://listverse.com/top-10-badasses...pecial-forces/
http://weapons.technology.youngester...world.html?m=1

Hmm, while all this 'Special Forces' league table stuff is very interesting (well, to some at any rate) it doesn't really help our young military friend out much...

First off, I suggest you take a look at this thread:

http://forum.transladyboy.com/showthread.php?t=3835

which may well answer a couple of your questions. I'd also add that, as you're only 20, it may well just be a phase and you'll move onto something else fairly soon. And remember, TS girls in real-life don't always look very much like the ones on the internet

[smc]

Originally Posted by Natalie_J

... And remember, TS girls in real-life don't always look very much like the ones on the internet

Natalie's on the Internet ... and she's gorgeous. Of course, not all of her pictures are posted for public consumption.

Originally Posted by smc

Natalie's on the Internet ... and she's gorgeous.

Very nice of you to say so

All I was meaning was, don't expect to meet somebody who looks like Mariana Cordoba or something.

Speaking of pictures, I shall to update my thread at some point - it's been at least a year...

[smc]

Originally Posted by Natalie_J

Very nice of you to say so

All I was meaning was, don't expect to meet somebody who looks like Mariana Cordoba or something.

Speaking of pictures, I shall to update my thread at some point - it's been at least a year...

I knew what you meant, darling.