Is there a sequence of events that you believe lead to your current sexual desires

[kitty cox]

I have vivid memories of sexual things as young as four or even earlier. I know that for me; my formative years had an enormous influence on my proclivities; here in the present. Maybe some of you do not have vivid, early, memories but I do. I had hoped the question would help (in some unscientific but useful) examination into the question was I born this way? Had my life experiences shaped or influenced some of our desires to become sexually stimulated by this variety of things either making some of us want to become girls or cross dress or perhaps simply enjoy sexual stimulation from viewing trans-gender or cross dressing individuals.
I have memories of being sexually aroused as young as three or four I remember having a fetish for girls panties at least a year before I started kindergarten and forcing myself to overcome my fears and ask the girls I knew if I could wear their panties. Before that I remember pretending that the plastic diaper covering that I wore before I was completely potty trained was a pair of panties. I remember right around that time how hard I would get and how good it felt to pull my pants down and turn over and look over my shoulder at my naked bottom and think how pretty it was. Every time there was a show on the television, with a girl in a short dress; I would be hoping and praying that she would twirl as she danced in hope that I would get a glimpse of her panties.
There were few boys to play with before starting school but in third grade a group of boys starting grabbing other boy?s crotch?s and I found that wonderful and not only grabbed other boys crotches but tried to fondle a good feel while doing so.
But with a frank discussion with the other members maybe we can get some insights into did the chicken or the egg come first?
so what do you remember about your formative years? Kitty Cox