Loneliness

[Enoch Root]

I'm just looking for a bit of support.

Should I just delete the thread? Can I even do that?

[ila]

Originally Posted by Enoch Root

It feels as if there are sentences missing from your posts. I'm not really sure what you're trying to tell me.

Am I under attack here?

Originally Posted by Enoch Root

I'm just looking for a bit of support.

Should I just delete the thread? Can I even do that?

Why would you think that you are under attack? You wanted to express your feelings and find some support. Fran simply gave you one solution and I expanded on it slightly.

My main point though is that the members here are not qualified to give you professional help. Many members will gladly contribute to your thread and try to help you. Your best help though will come from someone who has the training and background in psychology and that person is best able to help on a face-to-face basis.

[Enoch Root]

Fran's tone seemed a bit dismissive. Maybe I'm reading them wrong. If I'm wrong: sorry.

[ila]

Originally Posted by Enoch Root

Fran's tone seemed a bit dismissive. Maybe I'm reading them wrong. If I'm wrong: sorry.

I don't think Fran was being dismissive. She is a very sincere person in situations like this.

I wish you all the best and please don't do anything to harm yourself.

[Enoch Root]

There is this tug in me, one which I am not a stranger to. A rising compulsion to cause at least a little bodily harm that would take my mind away from everything else. I imagine this is what cutters experience.

It feels like the only form of release available to me. All my friends are either in college or working all the time, so I have no one on whom to depend.

And I always internalize my pain for prolonged periods. This is new: my speaking about it in such depth.

[smc]

The greatest enemy of yours in trying to get through this is isolation. You MUST talk to someone else, if not face to face then at least on the phone (for example, the Good Samaritans who offer telephone assistance for these types of crises). Try this link and find someone with whom to talk:

http://www.masspreventssuicide.org/resources/ch11.html

Although it is a Massachusetts-based site, there are many national services offered.

And don't fret about Fran. She is a loving, caring woman who means only the best for you. She can be brusque, but she is sincere. Don't worry about Fran; tend to yourself.

[Enoch Root]

Part of the problem with all this is that it makes me feel like an attention whore. Then again, a big part of the reason of where I am is precisely the fact that I am not particularly important to people and therefore live in isolation. Hell, it took me 4 years while in college to find anything like like-minded individuals whom I really got along with. How does one live in a culture that is so different from oneself--a culture that would burn you if it could?