Is there a sequence of events that you believe lead to your current sexual desires

[JonFrum]

I've already talked about this in a couple of posts, so I won't go into too much detail. Before we got our first girlfriends, my best friend and I did some sex play when he slept over my house. We were taking turns pretending to be the pretty girls we knew, and we jerked each other and kissed. I had actually forgotten until I thought about what I had posted the other day, but we also laid on top of each other and fucked between the thighs. I don't ever remember dealing with cum, so we were probably pretty young. I know we didint' ever consider it gay, it was just "practice" - typical kids's sex play.

Before we stopped doing it, though, I started wanting to suck his cock. I was really curious about what it would feel like in my mouth. I'm sure I wanted him to suck me, too, but it was really about feeling his hard cock in my mouth. I never told him about it, and then he hooked up with a girlfriend, and that was the end of our play.

Both of us forgot about it, and went on with our totally straight lives. It wasn't until I saw shemale porn on the internet - around 1996-97 - that I ever considered any sex other than straight. I was totally blown away by shemales - like they say, the best of both worlds!

So I spent a few years looking at all kinds of porn, but the more I looked at shemale porn, the more I thought about not just being sucked by them - my favorite - but actually sucking them, too. I always looked for pictures and videos of guys sucking shemale cock, and I still do.

But now, a few years ago, I was looking at a lipstick fetish site - mostly porn chicks with thick lipstick and gloss, and I saw that they had a "Lipsticked Guys" forum. When I saw my first pictures of guys in lipstick, I was confused, but gradually, the idea got into my head. I had to try it. When I finally did, just the scent of the red lipstick almost made me cum. I loved opening the tube, turning it to raise up the lipstick, and especially putting it on my lips.

From there, I bought more make-up, panties, nylons, dresses - the whole tranny deal. I found out that I was totally turned on by making myself look like a woman - why didn't I do this years ago?

I'll leave out the details, but I stopped dressing about a year ago, and now this site has got me going again. And once a crossdresser gets the urge, it can't be held off - it's like an addiction. So I just shot some photos to upload here, and I've got some nice silky thigh-highs on right now and my nails are painted red. Feels so fuckng good! I know I'm going to start dressing a lot again, and going out to clubs. I love being a tranny - I'm not hot, but I feel totally hot as a woman. No reason to fight that urge - it feels too good.