My first time here, and my confusion

[Bionca]

Originally Posted by Phenom99

This is my first time posting here, and to be honest, i've been very confused for the past few days.

I have never had feelings for anyone else but a typical female. A few days ago i downloaded some porn with Bianca Freire, mistaking her for a typical girl in the screenshots (i mean, wow she is gorgeous), and it was the most aroused i've been in years. I think about her just during various times over the course of the day and can't help myself from feeling giddy.

Now I don't know what to think. I guess we live in a society that expects clean definitions. But these definitions are almost impossible to define for most things, and I'm just now learning that it is the same for my sexuality. Falling in love with someone with a dick is becoming all the more feasible to me now. I haven't had very good luck in relationships, and i'm beginning to wonder if being in one with a feminine male would be more beneficial for me?

Does anyone have any thoughts on their transitionary periods, if they've had them? I would appreciate any input, i've been looking around the site and you all seem very nice.

Thanks,
-Phenom

You are absolutely correct, we live in a society that loves two boxes (black/white, gay/straight, man/woman) with no movement and no deviations. The realization that one does not neatly fit one of those handy labels can be frightening and confusing.

I imagine that the discovery that one can find a woman with a penis attractive would be a shock and would come with a number of questions about identity and sexuality. In essence "what does this mean" and "what does this make me". A community like this can be very helpful as a place to ask questions and to have the freedom to self-identify.