wannabe a tgirl now

[Naked Freedom]

i dont know whats happening to me? at first when i had anything in my ass my dick would be flaccid and i couldnt have erections till it was there, but now a days i get a better erection with something in my ass.

[Naked Freedom]

i think i have solved the mystery.....
i dont want to be completely transitioned, since i have fluctuating moods and sometimes i want to be male and sometimes i want to be female.....
i also think it would have been easier for me to express both sexes as and when i desire if i was a girl, since while girlyboys are ridiculed in my society boyishgirls are not....it can be said that it is encouraged upto a certain extent...
thus it wud have been easier for me if i wud have been born a girl....i would have been able to comply with my mental state without livin in the fear of being ridiculed at, when discovered...

but i cant even try to get hormones so as start the process of feminization....
since it wud cause trouble, and would put a lot of stress on my near and dear ones..... i think i wud have to bear this burden for the rest of my life.