In memory of my Keke

[hankhavelock]

In the process... I'm sugggesting a weekend (as I said) and I have organisatorial help from the community, so I hope it can be done within a month. I will finance it myself, because here in Indonesia there is SO much "good will" from the LGBT-community and SO little "good will" when it comes to getting the mold out of one's pocket. I awaited that, however, and so did Keke, so we always knew this would be a solo thing.

But that's fine, because then I don't have to thank any one and the bloody corruption I have to pay will be controllable :-)

I cannot wait to get this thing on in my sweet, sweet Keke's honourable name.

I'll let you know.

H

[hankhavelock]

and now I cry again over her... I've never cried this much over any one... OMG... she was a muslim and because of that I never had the chance to at least go to her funeral... she was in the ground before I was even made aware of her death... muslims bury their dead within 24 hours...

i miss her so much. i miss her kind soul and her Keke way. i just MISS her...

Keke was such a nice, nice person. i miss her "hi hansum, r u ready tonite?" - i miss our quiet weekends together.

SHIT! it's all coming back... my sweet darling Keke...

i'll be cool now... i cannot keep crying every time i think of her.

but i do miss her so much...

My sweet little Keke... and yes she also worked as a "working girl" in Taman Lawang. But that just made her even grander and sweeter as a person. No, Keke was not a rich girl, and no, she was never an ayam with me, but when she invited me to her little Keke-room in Menteng (in the little "ladyboy-house") then she invited me to her home, as modest as it may have been, but that was how we were, and that was the greatest honour. There we also found our closeness and our togetherness.

I just miss her... I miss my Keke...

H