wannabe a tgirl now

[transjen]

Originally Posted by biswajyoti

thanks for the insight. can u share ur experiences as a man which prompted this decision?

Well i knew i should have been a girl since i was 5 or 6 years old, As a kid i never fit in with the other boys so grewing up i had a rought time as i was everyones punching bag when i was 14 or so i found out there were outs like me when i found a book at the libary called second serve by Renne Richards and after reading her book everything became clear to me and i know what i had to do flash forward a few years and i found a therapist who lead me down the path to find my true self after hormone replacement breast implants minor facial surgery and finaly SRS i'm finaly who i'm supposed to be i was always Jennifer on rhe inside and now i'm Jennifer on the outside and i'm very happy with no regretts will other then not being a Ggirl but i've done all i can and am as close as medicaly possiable Jennifer

[Naked Freedom]

consulting a physician might be very costly....i doubt whether physians in my country will understand the problem...i fear the consequences when people will come to know about it
i am very much concerned about what will befall on my family.....especially my parents.

[Bionca]

www.tsroadmap.com is a good place to start to sort out what you will want to do. They try to make the resources as international as they can. Unfortunately, in some places there are simply no good options for TGs.

One thing I would caution against is relying too much on online tests. The questions can be worded in such a way as to get specific results - so even if you are 100% honest answering them, your answer may still be influenced by how the question was worded.

Ultimately, the only person who will be able to sort this out is you. With the aid of a therapist, this can be much easier. Still a good therapist will only aid you in figuring out what's going on.

There is also no single way that Trans* women come to identify as trans*. For example, before I transitioned, I have very little desire to dress in women's clothes. I never had a feeling of "releaf" when I did. Some TGs will say something completely different. The only thing that I think unites Trans* women and spearates us from cross-dressers, Drag Queens, TVs (all of which are perfectly fine things to be) is a sense early on that *something* was all wrong as we were growing up. That "something" has no word to define it, but every trans* woman I know understands what I'm talking about.

[Naked Freedom]

Originally Posted by Bionca

www.tsroadmap.com is a good place to start to sort out what you will want to do. They try to make the resources as international as they can. Unfortunately, in some places there are simply no good options for TGs.

One thing I would caution against is relying too much on online tests. The questions can be worded in such a way as to get specific results - so even if you are 100% honest answering them, your answer may still be influenced by how the question was worded.

Ultimately, the only person who will be able to sort this out is you. With the aid of a therapist, this can be much easier. Still a good therapist will only aid you in figuring out what's going on.

There is also no single way that Trans* women come to identify as trans*. For example, before I transitioned, I have very little desire to dress in women's clothes. I never had a feeling of "releaf" when I did. Some TGs will say something completely different. The only thing that I think unites Trans* women and spearates us from cross-dressers, Drag Queens, TVs (all of which are perfectly fine things to be) is a sense early on that *something* was all wrong as we were growing up. That "something" has no word to define it, but every trans* woman I know understands what I'm talking about.

i had never had the feeling that something was wrong with my gender....in my early days.... the feeling of being feminine came and went.......but can it be possible that it was because of lack of awareness that something like that is possible....but i used to be sad that i was not developing tits like the way my sisters had.....i even cried and was scared when i saw hairs coming out of my body.... it felt like some sort of disease.....the feeling of being feminine is now coming more often to me..... i have become different in many ways in the past few years...i dont want to mix with people....there is something utterly wrong.... the feeling to be female was never as gr8 to me as it is now.....the feeling is strengthening day by day. can anybody give me an idea about the total costs and duration for the complete transformation....
i am 24 ..... will it be possible for me to make the transformation. what is the maximum age after which it is not possible??? any help with these questions???

about tsroadmap.com.... i found the cogiati test there only and am still browsing there.... it is very inormative....
hope to find solutions soon and be at peace....

[racquel]

I think we all have some big similarities in our past. People talk in different ways about it. Many people say, "I knew I was a girl." I never felt like that. I knew I was a boy and I was very sad about it. I prayed every night from when I was 3 till I was 12 that I would wake up as a girl, then I kinda abandoned it because I didn't no anything about transsexuality.

People also made fun of the way I walked. And I also got into shemale porn and wanted to be the girls in the videos.

I was never all that much into the clothes. A lot of crossdressers like to sit around at home in women's clothes and it gets them very excited, or some say "relieves stress." I got into my mom's stuff when I was little until my dad caught me and ... put an end to that. But I was really more into her makeup than her clothes. I was in a relationship with a woman for a long time where I felt really trapped, but I didn't know what to do. But I eventually got out of the relationship and started spending a lot of time as a woman.

I think you know you're TS. I've seen a lot of people who were probably TS try to convince themselves they were crossdressers or try to totally suppress it, but it doesn't tend to work the other way around.

But don't trust any online tests with this. Just think about it yourself. There were times I managed to ignore it and times I didn't, but there has never been a time in my life where I wouldn't have to say I would do anything to be 100% female if I was being honest. I even shaved my head and started working out constantly at one point, but that obviously just made me feel a lot worse.

You said you have a lot of hair. Can you get laser hair removal in your country?

Don't worry about how transsexual you are. You don't like your body hair. You want to be feminine. Just start working towards that. People waste their whole lives getting around to doing something to improve their life. Just make a plan and go for it. If you go to the doctor and they burn the hell out of your face with a laser and you still think it's a good idea to schedule another visit you're probably TS.

[Naked Freedom]

Originally Posted by racquel

I think we all have some big similarities in our past. People talk in different ways about it. Many people say, "I knew I was a girl." I never felt like that. I knew I was a boy and I was very sad about it. I prayed every night from when I was 3 till I was 12 that I would wake up as a girl, then I kinda abandoned it because I didn't no anything about transsexuality.

People also made fun of the way I walked. And I also got into shemale porn and wanted to be the girls in the videos.

I was never all that much into the clothes. A lot of crossdressers like to sit around at home in women's clothes and it gets them very excited, or some say "relieves stress." I got into my mom's stuff when I was little until my dad caught me and ... put an end to that. But I was really more into her makeup than her clothes. I was in a relationship with a woman for a long time where I felt really trapped, but I didn't know what to do. But I eventually got out of the relationship and started spending a lot of time as a woman.

I think you know you're TS. I've seen a lot of people who were probably TS try to convince themselves they were crossdressers or try to totally suppress it, but it doesn't tend to work the other way around.

But don't trust any online tests with this. Just think about it yourself. There were times I managed to ignore it and times I didn't, but there has never been a time in my life where I wouldn't have to say I would do anything to be 100% female if I was being honest. I even shaved my head and started working out constantly at one point, but that obviously just made me feel a lot worse.

You said you have a lot of hair. Can you get laser hair removal in your country?

Don't worry about how transsexual you are. You don't like your body hair. You want to be feminine. Just start working towards that. People waste their whole lives getting around to doing something to improve their life. Just make a plan and go for it. If you go to the doctor and they burn the hell out of your face with a laser and you still think it's a good idea to schedule another visit you're probably TS.

i thank u for your suggestion .... i 've to check though whether its available in my country??? i think it will be costlier... wat about waxing again and again until the follicles get damaged...it will be painful i know.......


if people around me comes to know it will be a matter of great concern for my family as i am a part of a conservative society.

[Naked Freedom]

it might help if anyone who has walked the road can share their experiences...so that i can mentally prepare myself....

i also want to know whether anyone have ever tried the gender tests online and if my scores are something which support my claim that i am a female trapped in the wrong body?

my scores in the gogiati has been 245 for the third time in a row.... ( i have taken this test 18 times now.... first 15 times result were discussed in the 1st post)....which classifies me as a probable transsexual.


there were some tests on blogthings.com. the results are:

Do You Use the Internet Like a Man or a Woman?

Your Surfing Habits are 60% Male, 40% Female
If we had to guess, we would guess that you are a man.
You use the internet to make your life more efficient - and to make you smarter.
For you, the internet is like a vast encyclopedia.
You search and surf extensively. You look up everything online.

What's Your Inner Gender?

You Inner Gender is Female
You're sensitive, caring, and willing to connect with anyone who's open to you.
You make friends easily, and you enjoy all sorts of conversations.
You understand most people you meet - better than they understand themselves.
You're totally a woman... or at the very least, your soul is female.

Do You Communicate Like a Man or a Woman?

You Communicate Like a Woman
You empathize, talk things out, and express your emotions freely.
You're a good listener, and you're non-judgmental with your advice.
Communication is how you connect with people.
You're always up for a long talk, no matter how difficult the subject matter is.

Are You Masculine or Feminine?


You Are 62% Feminine, 38% Masculine
You are in touch with your feminine side.
Sensitive, intuitive, and caring are all words that describe you.
And you're just masculine enough to relate to both men and women.


What Gender Is Your Brain?


Your Brain is 67% Female, 33% Male
Your brain leans female
You think with your heart, not your head
Sweet and considerate, you are a giver
But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!


can anybody give me an idea about the total costs and duration for the complete transformation....
i am 24 ..... will it be possible for me to make the transformation. what is the maximum age after which it is not possible??? any help with these questions???

[transjen]

Originally Posted by biswajyoti

consulting a physician might be very costly....i doubt whether physians in my country will understand the problem...i fear the consequences when people will come to know about it
i am very much concerned about what will befall on my family.....especially my parents.

Sounds like you want it to be a easy switch, Hate to break it to you but there is no easy way to do it, It's hard both money and what you have to go thru both mental and physcial it costs money for the therapist and hormones and hair removal then there's surgery breast implant facial and so on then you will need a new warobe then there is a good chance you'll lose your job and career then there's your family and friends some will want nothing to do with you after you tell them then there's the name calling and worse from strangers. Sorry there is no magic pill that only happens in stories Jennifer

[Naked Freedom]

Originally Posted by transjen

Sounds like you want it to be a easy switch, Hate to break it to you but there is no easy way to do it, It's hard both money and what you have to go thru both mental and physcial it costs money for the therapist and hormones and hair removal then there's surgery breast implant facial and so on then you will need a new warobe then there is a good chance you'll lose your job and career then there's your family and friends some will want nothing to do with you after you tell them then there's the name calling and worse from strangers. Sorry there is no magic pill that only happens in stories Jennifer

it seems very scary.....
my parents have great expectations from me..... i cant leave them.... not in their old age......i am dutibound towards them.... its very torturing.... it is taking my peace away.....