i can do it.. but i can't do it...

wow, creativemind i really appreciate that reply, it definitely helped.
i decided to not do it.. the night i wrote that, a few minutes later the chicken was choked, and it's very true, the mind thinks much clearer.
it was probably written out of my sexual urge if anything... now that i'm thinking clearly, i think about how it would actually be if i went through with it and i can't stand the thought of actually doing it anymore.
taking into consideration every little detail, from how i would greet her, to how i would walk, to my body posture, to the thought of going into her home and feeling like i'm in a foreign place... i don't even think i'd be able to get my dick hard to honest now that i think about it.
not to mention the std's. getting std's my first time? hah that'd be a trip. screw it.
i'll just keep my money and use it for something worth while. i would love for my first to be a genetic girl just for the sake of tradition i suppose (don't get me wrong, i love real girls just as much if not more as tgirls), but sometimes i doubt my own ability to talk to girls. i go to college so there's plenty there, but it's still tough. especially when i don't know how to keep a conversation flowing with a girl.

as for the emotional thing, about having some sort of desire for a connection instead of just sex, i realize that it'll never happen with a hooker. and just for masculinity's sake, i don't really care much when it comes to all that shit, but sure it would be nice. so that's another reason to stay away for now i guess?

anyway, i'm pretty sure i'm just gonna wait. pron is really a brilliant thing, and should be praised by psychologists, therapists, and scientists, lol because it can really keep you from doing some stupid stuff.

[franalexes]

Your 18 and your sence of sencibilities is telling you what you already know

[Kendra]

don't worry honey,

I'ts better to have regret of something you've done than have regret that you it never done.

Just try once if you like it go on if you don't you didn't wasting years of doubting if you would like i or not.


much love
kendra

[franalexes]

Originally Posted by Kendra

don't worry honey,

I'ts better to have regret of something you've done than have regret that you it never done.

Just try once if you like it go on if you don't you didn't wasting years of doubting if you would like i or not.


much love
kendra

Like having a sex change, if you don't like it you can,,,,,,( oh, I knew there was a catch to this.)

[Kendra]

Originally Posted by franalexes

Like having a sex change, if you don't like it you can,,,,,,( oh, I knew there was a catch to this.)

oke it doesn't apply on all situations

[Bionca]

pal-

Creative Mind probably gave you the best advice ever. As a general rule, that voice in your head is telling you something important. Maybe you really aren't at a point where you can handle the mind-fuck that comes from sex with a trans*woman (it happens.. trust me). Maybe you are telling yourself that your first time shouldn't be a financial arrangement.

Dismiss it or not, but you will always remember your first time as long as you live. You may eventually have hundreds of partners of all genders in every imaginable way and combination. They can become a blur of naked flesh and you may forget names, dates, and places... but your first time will always be clear as the day it happened.

Do what you need to, but remember that will only happen once in your life.