Dislike of smales after masturbation?

[ocinteeni]

i think "guilt" was the wrong word entirely.... i know what i want and what i like... im just saying its a wierd feeling and i dont know why i get it.....

No I think guilt is the perfect word to describe what you are feeling. I have felt that way after cumming many times, not so much anymore. Over the years I have had to change my mindset from one that believed it was wrong for me to be attracted to transsexual women to one that knew it was ok. I believe the guilt can be a result from not wanting to disappoint your loved ones, like friends and family. I know for me I have always felt like if my family and friends knew of my true attraction they would disapprove and think less of me. This has conflicted with my attraction for transsexual women. And thats why when you are masturbating and your hormones and true feelings take over you disregard these ideas of disapproval and after you cum and its all over those ideas of your loved ones disapproval come rushing in and you feel awkward. Almost like your parents or friends have walked in on you jerking it to some tranny porno, but its truly your "after you cum mindset" that caught you in the act.

And I totally agree it would be unfair for the receiving end of this reaction. It is a personal dilemma that me and you have to deal with ourselves first before seeking out a transsexual relationship.

Maybe that helps, I know it is the mental dilemma I have faced. Perhaps you too...