Friends with benefits?

[GCharles]

I think no1000 hits the nail on the head. Tell her what you've written here, if she feels the same way good news, if not, then at least you know and can move on and, importantly, Let It Go! It is a very hard thing to do but it's much better than devoting a stupid amount of your time and energy thinking about her rather than moving on and living your life.

Starting to sound like an agony aunt column here lol! Good luck though whatever happens.