Newbie.

[ChiCubs]

hello everyone...i am new here. first post. a bit intimidated. but i have loved trans women for a very long time. i am married...my wife knows i am attracted to very feminine trans women. i am not attracted to men, masculine trans women, etc at all...but very feminine trans? i love them. i would also love to have an experience with a trans woman...top as well as bottom. but for now, all i can hope for is my wife to wear a strap on (she has yet to do that but does use a toy i have on me every once in a while). i am considering exploring though to experience a real fantasy with a beautiful transgender. but where to go? how to go about it? please go easy on me. if this has been asked a million times before my apologies.