a cry for help

[JodieTs]

Hi Sabrina

TBH, genuinely really, totally passing takes time, as in a few years.
When I say Passing, I mean as in real life they just don't know
as opposed to they just tolerate you and just say nothing.

So if you transition you will have a period when some/most people know your history,
from your looks, mannerisms, speech, Vocabulary and sentence structure, walk, body language, and so on.
You just don't get that any time soon.

Yes there is a risk in transition; that of loosing much.
Only you can access that.
But often many / most who transition,
do so, knowing those risks.
Because to stay a man, appears to them a worse situation, that to loose everything else.
{Oh, that's not 'Preachy' on my part, as I consciously didn't make those choices directly.
I just sorta did my own thing over several years, in small steps.
No great declaration till most of my transition was over.
By which point of course everyone had already worked out what was going on in my life}

Yes there are no guarantees as to how it may work out
or how you may look.
But appearance becomes a very secondary point of import, to those who do it.
Though looking like a Day-1 woman, to all and sundry, makes for an easier life.

Get a gender therapist to work through this stuff.

My thoughts are with you.

J. xx