Nightmare time

[sweetadam]

Hi guilty...

I have to say that you are brave or discussing your experience must be therapeutic for you. If I were in your shoes, I couldn't sleep peacefully nor would be doing my daily routine without thinking about the results. I won't judge you because you're not the first or last man to have sexual adventures. A lot of married or in relashionship people do the same, regardless of sexual orientations. And needless to say what some members here say about unprotected sex, it's never recommended. Now, at some point you'll have to choose one of the followings:
Tell her you have preference for ladyboys and including the truth about your encounters if possible and she decides whether to continue or terminate the relationship (you know better what is the convenience of this).
Continue your sexual encounters, don't say anything to her. For sooner or later she finds out, maybe from someone she knows or she sees you with a sex worker without you noticing it, or otherwise. It's not unusual to hire private investigators to prove infidelity.
You decide having sex ladyboys is your thing, and to be honest with yourself, you end your relationship. If later you met a GG you want to share your life with, you better start being honest with her (although it's not easy for them to accept that many men love that kind of sex).
Also if you really love her, you're being very inconsiderate, not just with you, also with her to have unprotected sex around, especially if she's ill. No one relieved of cancer will want to see an AIDS, herpes, crabs, syphilis, or many other more junk in the body. If so, then you're not good for her.

Good luck anyway

[guiltydreamer]

Originally Posted by sweetadam

Hi guilty...

I have to say that you are brave or discussing your experience must be therapeutic for you. If I were in your shoes, I couldn't sleep peacefully nor would be doing my daily routine without thinking about the results. I won't judge you because you're not the first or last man to have sexual adventures. A lot of married or in relashionship people do the same, regardless of sexual orientations. And needless to say what some members here say about unprotected sex, it's never recommended. Now, at some point you'll have to choose one of the followings:
Tell her you have preference for ladyboys and including the truth about your encounters if possible and she decides whether to continue or terminate the relationship (you know better what is the convenience of this).
Continue your sexual encounters, don't say anything to her. For sooner or later she finds out, maybe from someone she knows or she sees you with a sex worker without you noticing it, or otherwise. It's not unusual to hire private investigators to prove infidelity.
You decide having sex ladyboys is your thing, and to be honest with yourself, you end your relationship. If later you met a GG you want to share your life with, you better start being honest with her (although it's not easy for them to accept that many men love that kind of sex).
Also if you really love her, you're being very inconsiderate, not just with you, also with her to have unprotected sex around, especially if she's ill. No one relieved of cancer will want to see an AIDS, herpes, crabs, syphilis, or many other more junk in the body. If so, then you're not good for her.

Good luck anyway

I am not quite sure how to respond to this......all I will say for now is that you clearly did not read my post properly.
I am not putting my partner at risk.
We do not have sex.
Have not done for years.
I am only sharing this very personal information with this forum because the tone of your message has angered me somewhat, although I do not believe that is your intention.
As for being brave in sharing my experiences here - not really.
I hate my double life but do not have the courage to reveal myself for what I really am.
Should I have to?
Perhaps you are correct about the therapeutic benefits of posting as I have, after all - is not that one of the points of this forum?

[sweetadam]

Originally Posted by guiltydreamer

I am not quite sure how to respond to this......all I will say for now is that you clearly did not read my post properly.
I am not putting my partner at risk.
We do not have sex.
Have not done for years.
I am only sharing this very personal information with this forum because the tone of your message has angered me somewhat, although I do not believe that is your intention.
As for being brave in sharing my experiences here - not really.
I hate my double life but do not have the courage to reveal myself for what I really am.
Should I have to?
Perhaps you are correct about the therapeutic benefits of posting as I have, after all - is not that one of the points of this forum?

It's my opinion only. Everyone here can have a point of view on what members say. Some of us can express it and others don't. You're right to share your experiences if it makes you feel better, we don't know you so what we say shouldn't affect your daily life and decisions.
I don't think you're a bad person for what you do (women with dicks are a big turn on for sure, something diferent from a gg). I just think you're doing something that is very risky.
I have read and understood when you said you don't have sex with your partner, but if she wants to do it with you later .AIDS shouldn't be more contagious than the flu, but there're other STDs that can infect other people you don't have sex with. You could be exposed to some (herpes is a good example, and many times more contagious than AIDS) if you did oral sex without protection.

Good luck for you

[guiltydreamer]

Originally Posted by sweetadam

It's my opinion only. Everyone here can have a point of view on what members say. Some of us can express it and others don't. You're right to share your experiences if it makes you feel better, we don't know you so what we say shouldn't affect your daily life and decisions.
I don't think you're a bad person for what you do (women with dicks are a big turn on for sure, something diferent from a gg). I just think you're doing something that is very risky.
I have read and understood when you said you don't have sex with your partner, but if she wants to do it with you later .AIDS shouldn't be more contagious than the flu, but there're other STDs that can infect other people you don't have sex with. You could be exposed to some (herpes is a good example, and many times more contagious than AIDS) if you did oral sex without protection.

Good luck for you

SA - thanks and I apologise if I sounded a little cranky in my last post. I do appreciate your comments and fully agree that one of the purposes of sites and forums such as this is to allow us to express our opinions.
My behaviour has been risky - to the point of recklessness and I have been reeiving professional counselling regarding my sexuality, preferences and to learn & understand that if I continue to engage in sex with people outside of my marriage and in particular TG sex workers, then all sexual contact must be conducted in a safe manner.
For some inexplicable reason, I find this difficult. The physical nature of sex with a girl cock (is that offensive? - I do hope not) for me is that I want to enjoy the pleasure of flesh to flesh contact with every part of a Tgirls body and in particular her cock, balls and ass.
I am totally addicted and the rational reasoning part of my brain disconnects to the point where I brusg the risk aside as I am swept away in a lust fuelled haze.
Can anybody else understand and relate to these fellings and experiences? It is at times quite scary and alarming, yet thrilling and leads me to expose myself to risks as I have posted several times on this forum.
From experience, I can say that STD's are no fun - degrading and embarrasing, yet they can be treated quickly and effectively.
Hepatitus - get vaccinated (I am in the process of doing so and am clean and free).
HIV - totally scary and I hope that I have learned my lesson.

Now, who can convince me that sex, oral and anal penetration, can be good with a condom???

[sweetadam]

Originally Posted by guiltydreamer

SA - thanks and I apologise if I sounded a little cranky in my last post. I do appreciate your comments and fully agree that one of the purposes of sites and forums such as this is to allow us to express our opinions.
My behaviour has been risky - to the point of recklessness and I have been reeiving professional counselling regarding my sexuality, preferences and to learn & understand that if I continue to engage in sex with people outside of my marriage and in particular TG sex workers, then all sexual contact must be conducted in a safe manner.
For some inexplicable reason, I find this difficult. The physical nature of sex with a girl cock (is that offensive? - I do hope not) for me is that I want to enjoy the pleasure of flesh to flesh contact with every part of a Tgirls body and in particular her cock, balls and ass.
I am totally addicted and the rational reasoning part of my brain disconnects to the point where I brusg the risk aside as I am swept away in a lust fuelled haze.
Can anybody else understand and relate to these fellings and experiences? It is at times quite scary and alarming, yet thrilling and leads me to expose myself to risks as I have posted several times on this forum.
From experience, I can say that STD's are no fun - degrading and embarrasing, yet they can be treated quickly and effectively.
Hepatitus - get vaccinated (I am in the process of doing so and am clean and free).
HIV - totally scary and I hope that I have learned my lesson.

Now, who can convince me that sex, oral and anal penetration, can be good with a condom???

Your situation must be difficult, you aren't the only one who have those feelings for tgirls. Those women are magical so I suppose there're a lot of guys who love them so much as you do.