I finally did it !(lost my virginity as a girl)

[rozamond]

Originally Posted by morena

Hi, since this forum did learned me so much dealing with all kinds of doubts, problems and embracing myslef of who I am, I felt the need of sharing an important milestone of mine



Last Saturday it finally happened ! After a long time of doubting whenever I should do it or just keep it a little dirty fantasy, I decided to give it a try.

I'm still a closet transvestite so finding a date was difficult since I was a little afraid to hook up with some random stranger from the internet. But I knew that a friend from my cousin was in to shemales ( she mentioned it one or twice and her adversion to this).

I got his email address and after 1,5 weeks of chatting and sending some pictures I ask if he was interested to meet me. He was slighly older, 26 (i'm 20). And since he had his own place we agree to meet there.

I was very exited for our meeting and even bougth a new dress and some nice shoes (heels ofcourse ). The night before our little date I was so nervous I didn't get much sleep. That day I spent the whole day making sure I look as feminine as possible. It took me almost 2,5 hours to apply my makeup (something i normally manage to do in 45 minutes).


When I arrived and he opened the door I almost fainted form excitement. I also realized that my little fantasy was becoming a reality and started to doubt if I wasn't making a huge mistake. But he was very persistent.

I was a little disappointed that he was very transactional like. I always imagined that a man would treat me like a princess and after a nice evening would made love to me ( like in the romantic fifites movies).

But in that way the total opposite happened. "Hi" was the only thing he said before he ordered me tot kneel and suck his cock. I didn't know exaclty what to do but I was doing something right because it looks like he was enjoying it.

After my cock suck session he fondle a bit with my balls and stoke my cock a few time, then he started to suck my cock. But after less then 20 seconds he quit and let me bend over.

He barely opened me up, I think he was too horny , and start fucking me.
A mix of pure enjoyment , pain and confusion ( was I really doing this) was what i felt for the next half hour. When I was about to Cum he pulled out and put his cock in my face. I try to collect as much as i could with my mouth and swallow it all.

After he came, he said to me that he was really tired and I should better leave.

I didn't had a orgasm that night, but the feeling having a cock inside you , eating cum and feeling like a (slutty) woman did give me a very satisfied and strange feeling. It was the best feeling I ever head ( better than orgasms I had by girls)

Even tough my first "date" wasn't as "warm"as I imagined and I felt a little abused ( as fuck meat) I really hooked on now. I can't wait to experience this feeling again.

I'm proud to say i'm officially a cock addict !

waw...sounds great moment!!!!

[DeaconBlues]

I send out my sincerest "congrats" and respect for you!

This first time might have been a little bit disappointing, but really don't get discouraged one bit. For a first time it was pretty damn good and I am certain that as you gain skill and expertise things will get better and better.

Oh, by the way, I LOVE the way you say it:

"I'm proud to say i'm officially a cock addict!"

As a bi (straigh acting) male I also have found that it is really easy to become very enamoured, or "addicted" to healthy, stiff, clean cocks!

[BoyNeedsGirl]

Congratulations, I'm happy for you even though it wasn't the most pleasent first experience! And thank you for the lovely description

Now I gotta work on losing my actual virginity...

[franalexes]

The last time a guy tried to abuse me that way I bumped him up two octives.

So you think you have met someone that knows how to make love.
Let's hope the next time you find someone that can make you feel loved. ( as opposed to a pisspot to shoot a load into.)

[ila]

Originally Posted by franalexes

The last time a guy tried to abuse me that way I bumped him up two octives.

So you think you have met someone that knows how to make love.
Let's hope the next time you find someone that can make you feel loved. ( as opposed to a pisspot to shoot a load into.)

Fran, I agree with you. The OP's experience looks to me more like abuse than anything else. I would advise the OP to not go back to the same person as it is just a power trip and a feeling of superiority for him as well as just thinking of himself and his sexual gratification only.

I urge the OP to look for someone that will treat her with respect; don't settle for anything less than someone that will respect you and be concerned about your feelings, needs, and wants. It may not be easy to find such a person, but in the end you will respect yourself and feel good about yourself.

[franalexes]

Originally Posted by ila

Fran, I agree with you. The OP's experience looks to me more like abuse than anything else. I would advise the OP to not go back to the same person as it is just a power trip and a feeling of superiority for him as well as just thinking of himself and his sexual gratification only.

I urge the OP to look for someone that will treat her with respect; don't settle for anything less than someone that will respect you and be concerned about your feelings, needs, and wants. It may not be easy to find such a person, but in the end you will respect yourself and feel good about yourself.

It strikes me Ila that whoever gets you will loose their heart.

[Mel Asher]

While I am glad you got the experience of being satisfactorily reamed, I'm afraid I fully agree with the view that sex without feeling loved is a very poor second best. It is useful to scratch a persistent itch, but being sweet-talked and romanced has no equal, and the anticipation makes everything so worthwhile. So next time up the ante, raise the stakes, and go for the real thing. It will be well worth your time and patience.

Make all your need and beauty worthwhile.

[shadows]

Originally Posted by franalexes

The last time a guy tried to abuse me that way I bumped him up two octives.

So you think you have met someone that knows how to make love.
Let's hope the next time you find someone that can make you feel loved. ( as opposed to a pisspot to shoot a load into.)

For me, being in love would be far more satisfying that just making love. Don't get me wrong, sex is a good thing, but love is the spice that gives it a flavour that cannot be matched.

[Loki1913]

Originally Posted by franalexes

The last time a guy tried to abuse me that way I bumped him up two octives.

So you think you have met someone that knows how to make love.
Let's hope the next time you find someone that can make you feel loved. ( as opposed to a pisspot to shoot a load into.)

I agree with this.

I fell hard for a transwoman about a year ago, and I went to the ends of the earth to treat her like the elegant lady she is. If a guy doesn't treat you like a princess, find someone who will...trust me, we do exist!

[lbnoob]

a real man woulda treated you like a lady

[ComeToButthead]

Congrats. Whatever you decide to do, just know there are actual nice good guys who will "use" and "abuse" you if you're into that. You might even make a friend.

[orocenter]

It sounds like this was a positive experience for you because he knew what he wanted and ordered you to do it. This worked well for you because after worrying about what would happen, would you do something wrong, etc., you found that you had nothing to worry about because he took charge. You seem to have been excited that he regarded you as a sex object, and your story is exciting.

You want to do it again as soon as possible, but your options are limited. He got what he wanted from you, so I'm sure he wouldn't mind doing the same thing again. The problem may be that he may not be interested in doing anything different. "Hi, kneel down and suck my cock" may be an exciting beginning for you, but if it ends with him dismissing you as soon as he comes with no consideration for what you want, that may be all he is ever going to offer you. If you spent 2 1/2 hours getting ready, it seems like you deserve more next time, even if you enjoyed it this time.

If you see him again, you need to assert yourself a little, unless you want every time with him to be a repeat of the first time. It doesn't sound like you'll be in a position to dictate what happens, but if you say "I'd like you to..." once or twice, you'll either get an experience that is closer to your expectations, or you'll find out that he isn't interested in what you need.

Don't feel that you don't have any other options. You put a lot of effort in trying to please your date. It was easy for you to arrange the date with your cousin's help. She probably doesn't have any other likely boyfriends for you, but if you decide to look for a different relationship, it may pay off. I'm sure there's someone out there who will appreciate you.

Good luck.