Thanks a lot for trying to help me out!! I'm really grateful.
Though, I seem to have lost most of my ability to verbaly communicate with others during the last years ..honesty; I know I write like "a crow" and easily gets "carried away"
Pretty hopless case, probably. My hope lies in the fact that the "face to face -communication" still works..
I have spent (too?) much time out in the Norwegian nature - amongst birds and butterflies the last years (and they don't write

), and I've had some hard fights with different authority personell (up to ministers) trying to preserve small bits of our nature. Which is not easy - whatever "they" might say to the world, and the only thing that has been working to move theese "prominents" so far ..is use my nature skills to expose them, combined with the use of both a strong and a colorful language. Get the point?
So I will probably need half a year of intensive social training ..to regain my ability to "normally" communicate with my own specie again, at least in writings
My hope lies in the fact that my request to this forum was honest
and even more; I most certainly still love beauty..