I'm new an scared :(

[I_want_to_be_a_Shemale!]

Pleas help me I need guidence from someone that know how it was to become a "shemale".
I really been think of becoming one an I do not want to tell anyone, I wish for someone to help me, An I've no help in my life so far "I've been on my own my life". I feel horrible having a penis but I have to live with it i feel like if i turn into a sexy, making men cum like crazy, shemale ill feel compelet an happy.
Please help me
(I sound like a little child crying for his/her mommy but its true)
I love this place its like a new life/world to me thank you for creating this wonderful place!!