Traumatic Experiences

[barry]

Originally Posted by sesame

The idea is to express traumatic events that affected your life.

I hope that means you dont mind me sharing, if so my apologies:

i was young, too young to know the difference. i would say maybe 8-10. there was a guy down the street, probably 18-20 years old. we'd hang out and he would get my in my playhouse and start touchin himself. now i know what you all are thinking, this is traumatic how? well it is in the sense that i had no idea about sex at this point other than rolling around on my pillow for some reason made me pee - or so i thought.

anyway he asked me to pretend to be his girlfriend. just play with it. touch it. suck it for me. and so this continued and i didnt have a clue. he would return the favor which felt nice but at the same time i didnt know what the hell i was doing.

well one day it was just too hot outside to be in the clubhouse. so we went downstairs to my parents basement. prepare for the trauma...were doing the usual, both of us are pants-less, his boxers laying on the floor and my little whitey tighties wadded up in the corner. fully engaged in one another when the door opens and were both confronted by who else but my mother.

we scrambled up our clothes and she told him to go home immediately. she later talked to me about it and when asked why i was doing that, i said because he said it was ok that i acted like his girlfriend.

she then explained to me the wrongness of the situation. i harbor a lot of anger towards that guy because i dont know how much he screwed me up in the head. my mom never confronted him or his parents about it.

i guess i still feel like he never got what was coming to him.