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As a child I never went through that period many little boys have. I call it the "Icky Girls" phase. You know, where little boys act as if they hate women. Nope. Not this ol' boy. I loved the women they moment I was born. But, as a child I didn't have a developed sense of sexuality. I didn't know society's notions of right and wrong when it came to things like sexuality, crushes, attraction etc. I was just a stupid kid who loved girls. But I also liked boys it would seem. I recall, in the third grade having a crush on on male student in my school. And I even so far as to draw a silly little love picture of him. It was anonymously made and surreptiously left on his desk. And the teacher made such a big deal out of it and demanded who did it. Needless to say I kept my mouth shut and this was when I was first aware of sexual taboos. But I didn't think much of it being a kid and all. And so the years pass. I get older. And, like all kids, slowly encounter sexuality and society's views of it. And I repressed everything. Openly, I always liked girl. And I truly do love them. But I liked the boys too. Not as much as I did girls. Here there during puberty I experimented with my sexuality, even dressing as a girl. But that might have been more kink than actual gender issues or such. I masturbate alot. Introduced to porn as a child. and as I grew older it became harder to ignore the feelings in me. In the past when seeing nude males and such I'd pretend it sickened me. But it got to the point they aroused as much as women sometimes. This led to me experimenting in college many years ago. I decided at most I am bi. I couldn't be gay now could? A gay man wouldn't love girls. And so I love them. A pity they won't return the sentiment...bitches. ![]() But anyway, my only experience beyond only being with women was a threesome with a married couple. He went down on me. Then we did his wife. At the time I wanted this. Afterwards I hated myself for it. Long afterwards I came to accept it. Tgirls..I didn't know much about them until around this period. I never saw them except the stereotypes you get in movies. My only exposure to them was through the way society would depict them. I knew a girl who was a hermaphrodite but it wasn't quite the same issue. So, to me, tgirls..or trannies, shemales, whatever people call them, were mysterious and as a man I am supposed to find them disgusting. But I couldn't do that really. Quite the opposite. I found them appealing and interesting. I still don't quite understand my feelings for them. And it would seem rather foolish for a man who has never met one or spoke to one to even think about them. It's like wanting to go to the moon. Yet I do. Over the years my thoughts on them became more refined. Initially I saw them as guys wanting to be girls. Eventually I saw them as women. This was helped by my training as a counselor and through researching and education about gender identity and the like. And so, I suppose I like them because they are women. And I like women. But as I said I like boys too. But my feelings for boys are only sexual based. Always, through it all, I could only ever be emotionally connected to a woman, including those ones who have a little something else down below. I don't know if it means I'm straight, gay, bi or what. I don't care. I think it is safe to assume anyone who is a male and is attracted to tgirls is someone with complicated and perhaps even painful feelings inside. And for many of us it could well be just a kinky sexual thing. For others it could be an evolution of sexual and emotional attraction. Either way, it's all a moot point for me. As I've not met one. And I have only the one experience with a man. I bring that back up only because the man has a dick like a pre-op. The two are not the same in my mind. But would I feel the same if I did meet one and have some experience or relationship? Would I turn against the idea or finally be at peace? Beats me. If it ever happens I'll let ya know eh? |
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