Taking a Plunge

[Bionca]

My fella had a bit of bad luck with his roomies. They decided to up and move out of state giving him very little notice. Thankfully his land lord was willing to let him out of his lease, but that left him with limited options on where to live.

This is a guy who almost one year ago dumped me because he was "getting to serious" about me and needed to check his head. He later came back (obviously), but I'm still pretty unsure.

Given that I'm a giant softy, I couldn't exactly let him sleep on his friends' couches (or worse yet unofficially living with me). We have a spare room, that more like an apartment in the basement (giant closet and private bathroom), so we will be letting him stay here with us for the time being.

Things have been getting more serious between us...slowly... so I guess I'll just have to wait and see. I want to be excited and all starry-eyed about this (after all he's been mooning over this for a week), but I just can't. He's a good guy and he's trying. I just can't put my finger on why I'm apprehensive. The only thing I can think of is being gun shy after my ex, and probably missing all the good reading time I got waiting for dates that didn't show up.

So, wish me (us) luck and I hope I can get out of my funk before I become too jaded about relationships to be self-defeating.