Hmm, while all this 'Special Forces' league table stuff is very interesting (well, to some at any rate) it doesn't really help our young military friend out much...

First off, I suggest you take a look at this thread:

http://forum.transladyboy.com/showthread.php?t=3835

which may well answer a couple of your questions. I'd also add that, as you're only 20, it may well just be a phase and you'll move onto something else fairly soon. And remember, TS girls in real-life don't always look very much like the ones on the internet