i can do it.. but i can't do it...

[franalexes]

There are two ways I can address this.
1) is to say that this girl is an escort. That means she is doing it for the money. She doesn't give a rat's ass wether you make her enjoy it or not. Nor does she care about your sensitive mixed feelings. She is not here to fall in love with you. Hurry up, drop your pants and fuck; there's another guy waiting at 11:00. If you get a STD from this, well deal with it baby. Not my f***ing problem.

2) Your 18 and your sence of sencibilities is telling you what you already know is ethically or morally correct. Yes you want sex, but you are being held back by your true desire to have someone to love in your life. Having sex with someone you love is a heck of a lot easier than trying to love someone you merely had sex with.

3) yes there is a 3rd responce. If you have sex with a person that your conscience is telling you not to, you will never trust anyone again. That sounds odd but it is also true. If you want this responce in more detail then PM me.
If you need to know, I'm NOT an escort.