Top or Bottom

I see myself as an adamantine heterosexual. I'm a man, and i see t-women purely as women, they inspire me the exact, same feelings as any woman: protective feelings, galentry if not chivalry, tenderness, affection and always, somewhere allong the spine, at least a tiny bit of sexual drive. Taking it in the ass is something i can not even picture for myself.
As much as i feel for lovely Kitten , who's going to have her SRS in a few days, as she mentioned somewhere else, as much as i am with her in thoughts and in my heart, as anxious as i am to have some news from her as to how this all goes, and as to her well being during and after, i must admit that it's not my taste either...

[Kitten]

I think ThirdEyeGirl meant specifically that my video was not to her taste. Dan, I think you mean that being topped isn't to your taste?

Well, topping a man isn't to my taste either really. It was just a special set of circumstances and chemistry that led up to it happening. On the night it first happened, I had only just found out that my then-partner had some secret gender confusion of their own. We fooled around, one thing led to another, and it happened. It definitely wouldn't have worked out if I wasn't getting that female vibe from him. It was like... we understood each other better than we ever had before. Our combined arousal was far greater than the sum of it's parts; anything could have happened that night!

It certainly taught me to never say never!

Originally Posted by Kitten

I think ThirdEyeGirl meant specifically that my video was not to her taste. Dan, I think you mean that being topped isn't to your taste?
Well, topping a man isn't to my taste either really. It was just a special set of circumstances and chemistry that led up to it happening. On the night it first happened, I had only just found out that my then-partner had some secret gender confusion of their own. We fooled around, one thing led to another, and it happened. It definitely wouldn't have worked out if I wasn't getting that female vibe from him. It was like... we understood each other better than we ever had before. Our combined arousal was far greater than the sum of it's parts; anything could have happened that night!
It certainly taught me to never say never!

Ho ! oups ! Guess i wasn't following closely enough... I was sure it was all about girls topping guys...
In any case, that's indeed exactly my feeling. I see you and every t-lady as women i want to make love to, not the opposite. I admit not having even went to see the video for what you where implicitly describing of it (post #216 and 218), and i appologize if you felt i was disregarding or diminishing it in itself. You probably put some good work and energy in this and i just ignored it. I'm sorry, Kitten. I also appologize to all t-girls on this site if i sound just too straight at times: i think every human being deserves respect for who he/she is and for his/her singular tastes and practices. Yet, i see things so strongly as a hetero guy that i suppose i lack distance: i can't get out of my skin... I can't even get into that "top" identity or identification: it so totally goes without saying for me.

It's easy to see how feminine you are from your photos, Kitten. And i'm beginning to have a pretty good sense of where, like we say, you are "comming from". It's always difficult for someone like me (an ordinary joe, and maybe a bit too square) to envision what it must be like to be in the complex position of a transsexual. Feelings must be multiple and so incredibly complex. The feeling not to have the proper body for who you are deeply, and yet having to live in it, and then making such efforts to mold it towards adequation to oneself, being continually torn between dissatisfaction and hope. It's virtually impossible for someone who doesn't go through that to figure the pain and the complexity of such a gut wrenching psychological and physical situation. It's another reason why i admire and respect you so much. (Would be nice, by the way, to have a thread exclusively on that, on the very complexity of these feelings, if t-ladies like you would generously accept to participate.)
But i understand better now what you alluded to in previous posts: bottom at heart (my kind of girl), but accidental top ! Thank you so much for taking the time to explain it thoroughly ! i appreciate it a lot.
Well, i guess in a few days the question will totally be irrelevant to you anyways. I repeat that we will all be anxiously waiting for some news from you after your SRS, both about your after feelings and your well being, lovely Kitten.

[Kitten]

Allo', Allo'! danthepoetman, you are a rambling sweetheart. (Is 'rambling' more complimentary than 'babbling'? Yay or nay, I'm definitely a babbler ) As I've said umpteen times already, of course I will let you know how I got on. If you haven't heard from me by Wednesday, it might be time to start thinking about putting me in the obituary thread...

That thread you suggested sounds great. Only problem is, I could probably fill the internet twice over with the history of my confusion. I will happily chip in where I can, but where to start... ?

Well, the rambling, babbling, poetman might just start writing some necrological particulars then, maybe become some type of necromancer or medium (despite being extra large) and have tables turn on themselves trying to invoke your dearly missed spirit, Kitten. We, rambling people, are foolish at times... In the meantime i will try to command the elements for a perfect outcome on wednesday.
As to the thread, i could personaly read your babblings forever if you were kind enough to share them with me. You can never babble enough as far as i'm concerned.

Originally Posted by Kitten

I think ThirdEyeGirl meant specifically that my video was not to her taste. Dan, I think you mean that being topped isn't to your taste?

Well, topping a man isn't to my taste either really. It was just a special set of circumstances and chemistry that led up to it happening. On the night it first happened, I had only just found out that my then-partner had some secret gender confusion of their own. We fooled around, one thing led to another, and it happened. It definitely wouldn't have worked out if I wasn't getting that female vibe from him. It was like... we understood each other better than we ever had before. Our combined arousal was far greater than the sum of it's parts; anything could have happened that night!

It certainly taught me to never say never!

And just a week after I say I wouldn't want to top a guy, I top my new bf.

But he does have a very fem body and isn't all to masculine, so I guess he could fit into the femboy category, even if he doesn't act or dress it.

Originally Posted by ThirdEyeGirl

And just a week after I say I wouldn't want to top a guy, I top my new bf.

But he does have a very fem body and isn't all to masculine, so I guess he could fit into the femboy category, even if he doesn't act or dress it.

We are changing beings, and that’s what’s interesting about us. Life would be boring otherwise, wouldn’t it? And sexuality is so complex! as much as the depth of personal identity.

I, as an straight man, who never had sex with a man of course, am also sometime, somewhat troubled by pictures of very feminine femboys… I must make that confession.

Congratulations on your recent love, ThirdEyeGirl !

Originally Posted by danthepoetman

We are changing beings, and that?s what?s interesting about us. Life would be boring otherwise, wouldn?t it? And sexuality is so complex! as much as the depth of personal identity.

I, as an straight man, who never had sex with a man of course, am also sometime, somewhat troubled by pictures of very feminine femboys? I must make that confession.

Congratulations on your recent love, ThirdEyeGirl !

Thankx, and I did have to lawl at your redundancy of saying "feminine femboys"... Really? haha

[Hedonistman]

Humans are indeed most greedy of species, lol. We all prety much want all we can get. Back,,way back,, in the day,, mores, ethics,,and morality, acted as very strong 'check' on our wanton (no not the soup) desires. In the past 20 years or so,,,like 'baby w/d bath water',, western culture has tossed most of those,, all away. Today,,, pretty much EVERYTHING, is A-OK. Perhaps that's all for the best,,but perhaps not,,, fuck if Joe knows,,lol

Originally Posted by ThirdEyeGirl

Thankx, and I did have to lawl at your redundancy of saying "feminine femboys"... Really? haha

Well, I felt I had to ?redund? a little on that one. Straight male pride is quite constraining...

[curiousguy]

since ive never been with one, id try both!!! but have alot of interest in being a bottom