Why The Shemale Attraction

[Girlfan84]

Yes, I meant genetic. Thanks for catching that. And as for my faith and belief. Yes, I am Christian...thus making it difficult for me to fully accept this attraction. I often have prayed to God about this (my strong attraction to non-genetic girls). And, no matter how much I try to distance myself from the attraction, it always resurfaces. In my mind, I feel that it is wrong to have such an attraction. Yet, knowing these girls in their minds feel that they really are girls and not boys really takes me for a loop. Also, I often feel that it is unfair that these girls have had to live the life that they have - "trapped in a body that they wish they never had." I've had some beautiful conversations with the girls - oftentimes seeing them tell their stories with tears in their eyes. I am not one to question God's work. For, I truly believe He makes no mistakes. But, transsexualism is one of those issues that I guess falls into the category of "we will understand it better on the other side." Subconsciously I feel that the attraction is OK, because I am attracted to their female quality, not male. As far as just letting go and let my feelings flow, so to speak, it is easier said than done. At this point, I'm not there. Call me a coward, confused, etc. But, it's just not something that is in my DNA. In closing, I just want to say, it really feels good to be able to get this off my chest. Thanks for your response too.

[smc]

Originally Posted by Girlfan84

Yes, I meant genetic. Thanks for catching that. And as for my faith and belief. Yes, I am Christian...thus making it difficult for me to fully accept this attraction. I often have prayed to God about this (my strong attraction to non-genetic girls). And, no matter how much I try to distance myself from the attraction, it always resurfaces. In my mind, I feel that it is wrong to have such an attraction. Yet, knowing these girls in their minds feel that they really are girls and not boys really takes me for a loop. Also, I often feel that it is unfair that these girls have had to live the life that they have - "trapped in a body that they wish they never had." I've had some beautiful conversations with the girls - oftentimes seeing them tell their stories with tears in their eyes. I am not one to question God's work. For, I truly believe He makes no mistakes. But, transsexualism is one of those issues that I guess falls into the category of "we will understand it better on the other side." Subconsciously I feel that the attraction is OK, because I am attracted to their female quality, not male. As far as just letting go and let my feelings flow, so to speak, it is easier said than done. At this point, I'm not there. Call me a coward, confused, etc. But, it's just not something that is in my DNA. In closing, I just want to say, it really feels good to be able to get this off my chest. Thanks for your response too.

I'll be blunt: this all sounds like rationalization for not being true to one's self. Forget the god crap and live your life, and if there is a god the deity will reward you for your truthfulness and honesty -- to yourself.

[no1000]

+1 again to smc's comment.

Originally Posted by Girlfan84

Yes, I meant genetic. Thanks for catching that. And as for my faith and belief. Yes, I am Christian...thus making it difficult for me to fully accept this attraction. I often have prayed to God about this (my strong attraction to non-genetic girls). And, no matter how much I try to distance myself from the attraction, it always resurfaces. In my mind, I feel that it is wrong to have such an attraction.

How can you be attracted to shemales and still think it is wrong? Are you sure you are the one thinking it's wrong or has it been the christian doctrine? Your priest? Your christian peers?

Originally Posted by Girlfan84

Yet, knowing these girls in their minds feel that they really are girls and not boys really takes me for a loop.

Can you not accept reality? Not christian reality.

Originally Posted by Girlfan84

Also, I often feel that it is unfair that these girls have had to live the life that they have - "trapped in a body that they wish they never had." I've had some beautiful conversations with the girls - oftentimes seeing them tell their stories with tears in their eyes. I am not one to question God's work. For, I truly believe He makes no mistakes. But, transsexualism is one of those issues that I guess falls into the category of "we will understand it better on the other side."

If you truly believe that god makes no mistakes how is it unfair? Transsexualism is completely comprehendable but you really do have to accept reality and not christian reality.

Originally Posted by Girlfan84

Subconsciously I feel that the attraction is OK, because I am attracted to their female quality, not male. As far as just letting go and let my feelings flow, so to speak, it is easier said than done. At this point, I'm not there. Call me a coward, confused, etc. But, it's just not something that is in my DNA.

I thought you said that in your mind it's wrong? I think social constructs, norms, and religious doctrine have won here.

Originally Posted by Girlfan84

In closing, I just want to say, it really feels good to be able to get this off my chest. Thanks for your response too.

The christian religion is full of ignorant, intolerance bigotry that makes me sick to my stomach. I respect you man but lately I've had a hard time respecting religion, especially christianity. Why can't you be true to yourself and accept this is something that you like? Can you not be christian and like shemales? Are shemales going to hell? Are gays going to hell? Yes, I like strawberries and shemales. BIG DEAL.

[Gor Gar]

Originally Posted by Girlfan84

As far as just letting go and let my feelings flow, so to speak, it is easier said than done. At this point, I'm not there. Call me a coward, confused, etc. But, it's just not something that is in my DNA. In closing, I just want to say, it really feels good to be able to get this off my chest. Thanks for your response too.

If being attracted to t-girls is the biggest stumble block you ever hit in life, then consider yourself fortunate. A lot of folks, for whatever reason, when they're attracted to t-girls seemingly have a hard time facing up to the desire, and it's not just religious people. Heck, on this forum alone there were so many "am I gay?" topics that the threads wound up getting merged, so that should be an indication in itself that you are not alone.

But as a Christian myself, (yeah yeah, devilish looking avatar, I know, but it's from an old pinball game I loved as a kid) the best thing I can tell you to do about this or any other emotional dilemma you may face is to pray about it. You got it off of your chest, you got some friendly words of advice from a couple of really good guys about it, take their words into consideration of course, and then take it to prayer and stop worrying about it. I know that's always easier said than done, but as a Christian I'm sure you believe that only you will have to answer to God for how you live your life, and other people will have to answer for how they live their lives. See how the Lord touches your heart over it...in other words let go and let God (I'm sure there's a bumper sticker with that saying on it somewhere, I know I didn't come up with it)...but in my opinion the last thing you need to do over this is beat yourself up over it.

I hope this helps.