Is there a sequence of events that you believe lead to your current sexual desires

[sissyneha]

Originally Posted by megalops

Sissy, thanks for sharing your story. Its just horrible how people treat each other when there's a slight difference in how we are.

As a youngster I was a typical boy, never abused or molested. At puberty I noticed that I attracted to some boys, small petite boys with feminine traits. One boy, who I was attracted to, told some others that he and a friend exchanged blow jobs. You can guess what happened. That kid was mocked, ridiculed and hounded. I felt sorry for him and was the only kid who was still civil to him. But I also learned I had to be very cautious about telling who I was attracted to or sexually desired. By the time I was 15 I had sex with 2 boys, both who lived in other towns and didn't go to my school. One of them was a regular. (By sex I mean blow jobs and jerking each other. No kissing, hugging or anal.) By 16 I had discovered girls and tried to put boys in the past. After all, I didn't want to be a "fag" or "queer." But the attraction was still there. In college I met other guys I was attracted to. I noticed that the ones that turned me on all had feminine traits. Round ass and hips, little body hair, full lips. Most of these guys were straight but when I was 19 I befriended Wayne, who was always acting macho and talking about pussy. I sensed he was full of it but played along. After about 2 months we finally had sex. And we did everything. We became "roommates." Outside he continued to put on his act and looked the part. Inside he was kind, gentle and had a more feminine appearance (to me anyway). To make a long story short, over the years I engaged in relationships almost exclusively with women but did have a couple of male lovers. Again, they were a certain type. Very feminine in appearance and behavior.

My job as a medical social worker brought me into contact with the transgendered community. Again, I was attracted to so many of my clients but couldn't say or do a thing for professional reasons. I have yet to have sex with a T-girl and have no interest in escorts. I like to build relationships and know the person from the inside.

So, for whatever reason, I'm attracted to females and feminine males. No one thing made me that way. Its just the way I'm wired psychosexually.

thanks for sharing your experience as well.....
i agree that a one off thing can't change a person's outlook but a chain of events can....
i considered myself bisexual and somewhere between both male and female (at the very initial stages of understanding my sexuality)....but as i explored more i discovered my true being (wat i really wanted to be).....and i'm happy with the choice i made.