Need help, Never Been with a TS before.

[Zepequeno]

Hi Everybody, I am 30 year old guy and I have Been masturbating to brazilian shemales for 7 years now. Some of my favourites are Luciana Foxx, Sabrina Suzuki and Veronica Bolina, just to mention a few. I Really like fit/muscular brazilian shemale with a monster cock. The Thing is I dont consider myself gay, I dont like men at all, I just have a weakness for shemales. And I always thought I could just keep it on this level Where I just jork off to TS videos everyday but lately my urges to be with a TS has Really grown. I cant Think of anything Else, its The first Thing I Think of when I wake up, when I eat, shower, work, watch tv, work out, go to sleep. I Think about it constantly. I imagine myself getting gangbanged by 3 shemales, with a cock in my mouth, ass and hands. I Also imagine Them Coming in my mouth and I swallow their cum, just so you guys Can get an idea of How bad In a shape I am. I Really get turned on by The idea of being a sex slave and sex toy to get used by shemales.

I dont Really Care What people Think of me if they find out, I only Think about myself, if I Can live with my choices if I regret.
But I am afraid of What I Will become if I do this ??!!
Will I become gay ???!!!
Will I stop chasing normal girls ????!
Will getting pussy become boring Next to sucking a monster TS cock ??!!

There is NOT Really Any turning back, once you had a TS cock inside you, Then you have officially Been with a TS, does that automatically make you gay ????!!!!
I Also dont know How To see Them, are they just women with a cock or are they men dressed as women ???!!!
I am confused.

Thanks, and hope my thread wasn't too long, hope There is someone out there with some advice or ideas.