Penis as On/Off Switch

[morena]

I discovered that when I mastrubate and get a orgasm, I always feel very masculine ( and hetero sexual) and keep feeling that way for a while. As long as I masturbate once a day everything is fine.

But when I skip 2 days or longer I start getting that urge to become a female. I'm not talking about only dressing as one, but completely the way of walking , talking , eating , thinking everything. The feeling starts little but always increase very fast. Mostly after a day or 8 of no masturbation I completly has lost my attraction to girls and begin longing exclusively for men :S. When stimulating my prostate anally or finger my forehead like its a clitty I will also get a climax but then the feminine feeling stays. As soon I stroke my penis and get an orgasm from that ( so real jerking off) the desire vanish completely and is replace by a strange regret and thought that I failed again with controlling myself. This is when I have absolutely no desire to be a woman or even look to a man (100 % heterosexual)

The thing is I kind of like that feminine feeling ( actually much more than the masculine version of it).

Does anyone have a similar problem ? or a possible explanation for this strange ? And does anyone know how to stop this switching urges ? (femine hormones perhaps ?)


Many kisses Morena