Is there a sequence of events that you believe lead to your current sexual desires

[sissyneha]

i grew up in a joint family and all my playmates were girls (i have five sisters in about the same age group as me), the boys in the family were bigger than me and i being the youngest was always being bullied, since i liked playing with my sisters.
we used to play dolls, make up stories about ourselves and play pretend games, dumb charade, musical chairs, and what not... hide n seek....i 'm getting nostalgic.......
but the best game that we played was the fashion show (and u know what, on this pretext i could get myself some pretty girl dresses from my parents)..... i won a few times....and God, was i proud???!!!
being with the girls for all my childhood made me be them....in fact made me want to be like them..... i might call it sibling envy...or rivalry whatever...
i used to act like girls, sit like them, pee like them, wear dresses......
Nobody took notice,... they probably ignored....everybody in the family forgot that i was a boy....so did i.....