think i'm losing it?

these ladyboys have been consuming me lately..

literally like 3 times a day i bust out and check out some ladyboy porn. i don't even think about genetic girls anymore.

i'm young, and i don't even think about going out with my friends anymore, i don't see a point really all they want to do is get some pussy and i don't even think about real girls anymore. all i think about is ladyboys.

i've become obsessed with lb cock.. it's was hard to type that trust me. i just want to suck one, any decent looking, even borderline crossdresser cock... i mean i never thought this would be me... yall have no idea how bad i want it.

i do feel good about one thing though, i don't, and never have wanted to "take it in the ass". i feel like that's the real borderline between gay and straight, but thats just me.

anyway, what do u guys think, and have u ever been in such a frustrating state of mind? how'd u deal with it?