do you get jealous when watching ladyboy porn?

i know i do. i get really jealous. especially when i watch old white men who are ugly as hell, with absolutely stunning, gorgeous angelic ladyboys.. it just makes me mad i don't know why. and it ONLY happens with ladyboy porn, not regular porn.

recently my ladyboy obsession has grown extremely strong. i'm at the point where i have very little desire for genetic girls. i think this has something to do with my jealousy. but anyway, i mean, look at this: http://www.angel-porns.com/video/lad...35g/index.html

take a look at that ladyboy, which words cannot explain the beuty that she has. i can't even begin to explain how heavenly her body is, i mean, i really think i'm going crazy here.

now look at the 3rd clip, that old white dude just pisses me off. i hate seeing him. look at the contrast between them, one absolutely beautiful person, then that old fat dude fucking her. it's just annoying. you can even see her laughing a little bit at him on the 3rd clip (i assume because he looks and sounds so stupid trying to fuck her).

god this makes me so mad. i don't mean to brag, but i feel like any of these girls would be better off with me. i would treat them like people, not just sex objects, i would care for them, i'm 18 years old so i think they would enjoy my company as well, i can probably connect much more with them than any old fat white man, and i just think i'm better than them. i know it's not a nice thing to say, but it's how i feel unfortunately. every time i see a beutiful, young asian ladyboy with a old white dude it makes me angry!! they know they're not physically attracted to them, they probably can BARLEY communicate because of language barriers, but they stay with them because he has MONEY, and that's it. life sucks.

i'm going to vent for a little longer here...
i don't mean to offend anyone here, but i'm not sure why, but i don't think i'm like the rest of you. i feel like i'm different, like i don't fit into your category. firstly, i'm probably the youngest member on here, second, i'm not white(don't mean to be racist, i'm sure theres plenty of non whites here), third, i absolutely do not like the idea of my anus being penetrated. i think that puts me on a different level. and i don't mean higher or lower, just, a different realm of thought.

if you call me crazy i don't blame you. my thoughts are scattered around my brain and i can't seem to put them in a straight line. i get depressed at the thought of becoming a dirty old man who lives in thailand and fucks a different ladyboy every night. i'm sorry guys, but it's just really fuckin weird. i don't want to be that. i'm not sure what i want to be. i know that i REALLY want to go to thailand or the phil and i want the ladyboy to enjoy my company as much as i enjoy hers. i don't want to be an old fat strange dude who has a lot of money and ladyboys talk to him only because he has money. i want them to talk to me because i look good and they honestly are intested in having some kind of sexual realationship with me.

i feel as though in foreign countries like thai and phil, the ladyboys honestly hate the old fat white sex tourists, because firstly, they're ugly, second, they are ignorant, third, they have more money than they need, and yet they probably still pay the prostitutes very little. they only give them attention because they're obviously tourists made of money, and they want that fucking money.

i say, if you're going to make porn with these angelic creatures called ladyboys, atleast get a guy that looks good to fuck her, they deserve much better than that. jesus christ.

and that concludes my fucked up stream of thoughts. i have no point, i have no thesis, i have nothing to offer but my thoughts. sorry if i offended anyone, i'm usually a nicer person than that but i needed to vent. i'll understand if this gets no replies haha.

ps. here's another clip that pisses me off http://fhg.extremeladyboys.com/elb/f...php?id=1195706

the last clip, the ladyboy with the curlier hair in the front.. i feel bad for her.. her beautiful angelic body should not have to put up with that ugly ass dude's cock in her ass. she deserves much better than that.