Identify me

[brada]

Hi can someone help me discover my actual gender identity?

I am a gender male, and I have 4 sisters. Since extremely early childhood years I have always felt like and thought of myself as more a female than a male.

I must have been only 12 or 13 when I wore my first bikini (in private)

Around the age of 15 or so I had a boyfriend who i did lay with regularly

I love to wear boyshorts, panties, tight lowrise jeans. I suppose if i were actually a complete female I would be a tomboy, I would probably wear jeans and tshirts and halters etc, like so many of the girls you see in the mall and out and around.

I am NOT into wearing dresses and skirts and tops though, although maybe if I were substantially prettier I might.

I have a slight frame, not like most typical guys, but more like all of my petite skinny little sisters.

I have one breast which the nipple is hard most of the time and alot more sensative than the other, and my breasts are puffed out ever so slightly, naturally, and always have been.

I have small genitalia.

I have always been into girls even though in my younger years I had that boyfriend, I dated alot of girls, then I married one.

When I look at girls either in public or in porn, I do NOT wish that I could have them, but instead, I wish I WERE them.

I fantasize about BEING those girls and crave it so badly but have no interest in being with those girls.

I also (recently) discovered that I am now once again interested in men. I crave being WITH men.

I do not consider myself to be a man, I feel more like a woman & think more like a woman.

I do not think I am merely a cross dresser, I feel like I am more a girl who was born with male genitals.

Oh, it may also be helpful to note that... I have spent around the last 4 years (spare time) living in second life. I have a beautiful female avatar who works at a club in world as a stripper and in there I am able to live as that girl that I feel like I should be. Recently I have made a new avatar though, this one a female but with no breasts and a penis, I am now acknowledging myself in second life as what I think I just might be in real life... a femboy.

Can someone put a label to me?