Well, I replied "secret for now" but none of the choices are really appropriate for me. I don't care what other people think of me, I am much stronger than that, and I'd like to believe that my family would love and support me no matter who I loved. And it really isn't anyone else's business who I am attracted to.

I have never been with a t-girl, and it's been a long time since I had a girlfriend. I have fantasized about t-girls for more than half my life, and I have long since come to terms with that in my own mind. I do not consider myself "gay," I consider myself to be myself. (I only mention that because it seems to be THE first question every guy asks himself (and the first forum of this kind he finds!) when he realizes his attraction to tgirls. I know I asked myself that question long ago).

I figure I could have sought out a t-girl escort long ago, and many times since, but I have never paid for sex and do not know that I ever will, even if my fantasies never become reality. I find the idea of paying for sex to be depressing, to be honest. It's not a moral question for me as I believe prostitution should be legalized as it's never going to go away anyway, but a combination of my upbringing and my own outlook have thus far precluded me from seeking out an escort.

The fact is, I want to find my soulmate, and I would love that soulmate to be a tgirl. Is this a stupid dream with zero chance of being fulfilled? Perhaps, but if I compromise I will never know. I admit to being pretty stupid as I don't frequent any places that are known to be tgirl "haunts" and I haven't looked on-line for a tgirl girlfriend, but I still fantasize about finding that special girl. And if I did find her, you bet your bottom dollar I wouldn't hide her or be ashamed of her. She'd be ultimately the only thing that mattered, to hell with what anyone else thought.

Well, sorry for the long-windedness. Maybe I am just a hopeless romantic (well, hopeless certainly), but I can no more change that fact than I can change the fact that I think tgirls are the most beautiful girls on the planet, inside and out.