I think we all have some big similarities in our past. People talk in different ways about it. Many people say, "I knew I was a girl." I never felt like that. I knew I was a boy and I was very sad about it. I prayed every night from when I was 3 till I was 12 that I would wake up as a girl, then I kinda abandoned it because I didn't no anything about transsexuality.
People also made fun of the way I walked. And I also got into shemale porn and wanted to be the girls in the videos.
I was never all that much into the clothes. A lot of crossdressers like to sit around at home in women's clothes and it gets them very excited, or some say "relieves stress." I got into my mom's stuff when I was little until my dad caught me and ... put an end to that. But I was really more into her makeup than her clothes. I was in a relationship with a woman for a long time where I felt really trapped, but I didn't know what to do. But I eventually got out of the relationship and started spending a lot of time as a woman.
I think you know you're TS. I've seen a lot of people who were probably TS try to convince themselves they were crossdressers or try to totally suppress it, but it doesn't tend to work the other way around.
But don't trust any online tests with this. Just think about it yourself. There were times I managed to ignore it and times I didn't, but there has never been a time in my life where I wouldn't have to say I would do anything to be 100% female if I was being honest. I even shaved my head and started working out constantly at one point, but that obviously just made me feel a lot worse.
You said you have a lot of hair. Can you get laser hair removal in your country?
Don't worry about how transsexual you are. You don't like your body hair. You want to be feminine. Just start working towards that. People waste their whole lives getting around to doing something to improve their life. Just make a plan and go for it. If you go to the doctor and they burn the hell out of your face with a laser and you still think it's a good idea to schedule another visit you're probably TS.
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