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I know, I was just kidding around... Australia has a lot more offer than Crocodile Dundee and the invention of box wine.
The whole idea of what makes someone a real friend ... It's complicated. I mean, I had so many good friends growing up. Everybody I ever met seemed to like me. I knew four different people who each considered me to be their best friend.
To make a long story short, all of these people now think I'm literally insane. They feel sorry for me and avoid me. Sometimes I think they're right. I don't think they went from being great friends to being evil people. It's unreasonable to think I'm right and everybody else is wrong. And maybe it's unreasonable to want a boyfriend who isn't afraid to be seen with me if my childhood best friends don't want to be seen with me. At least I've done society a favor by sterilizing myself.
I still feel like I'm the same person I always was. After awhile you start to wonder if it's possible to be loved without being understood, though. My former friends definitely don't understand me. Is the problem that the person my friends loved never actually existed? I've only changed on the outside.
People have trouble getting past their prejudices. I'm not sure if that makes them bad people or not. I mean, it's hard for me to convince myself that they were never "real" friends because they couldn't handle my transition. It's definitely depressing.
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