Not sure i can put this in words but i'll give it a try, To start with i never felt masculine in whole life, Yes when i was born i had a penis and the DR declared me to be male but i always felt female, So having a penis and having it played with never made me feel masculine the reason i hated having one and having it touched made me feel even more like a freak it didn't belong there, I never should have had a penis to start with and the sight of it just reminded me that some where someone screwed up big time because i was a girl not a boy, So for me it was more of it didn't belong there and i shouldn't have had one to start with. Ok i probaly have everyone even more confused now
Jennifer