i'm not sure what I'M really ..i mean i don't know.. a girl or a man?..i think more a girl.. but is so sooo difficult for me,cause thats the dilemma of my life where i'm ..


this is making my lives a misery ..

..i'm despairs^^^

sometimes ..i think it's better i'm dead ..

..but i believe i'm strong,cause my last suicid attemped is over 15 years ago ..


^^( sry,my english is very bad << i know! <<) ^^


i wish you all merry christmas