I spent many months getting increasingly obsessed with shemales... even visiting some clubs in Asia where I'd meet with them, chat - but just couldn't bring myself to take one home...
Then one night in Bangkok I saw one sitting in a cafe, sat down and chatted to her and a short time later we were in a hotel room! It was the first time I'd touched another person's cock... certainly the first time I sucked one. It was all oral and stroking - no penetration - but it was great. I loved it (she came first) and afterwards I had no guilt whatsoever (my major fear).
Thing is, I was attracted to her for her feminine physical beauty - not her masculinity. I don't think that makes one gay, although I agree with the above posts that's a label anyway.
Since then I've had a second enjoyable experience - in Macau - and I day dream about the third.. and maybe finally penetrating one...
But I am still very much attracted to females born females too and watch porn covering both genres.
You need to release your tension mate. If you DO feel guilty or bad afterwards (unlikely) time will heal it pretty fast.
Good luck!!
(Meanwhile, if there are any ladyboys in Sydney who want a quiet discreet liasion.....)
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