Arthur this is a excellent post.
I can see some of myself in you and my feelings where very much the same as yours when i first encountered shemale porn.
Worrying about my sexuality, not wanting to go to my grave without trying it out, worrying about all the risks, all things that have run trough my mind over the past couple of years and i think alot of the tgirl virgins on the forum too. So your story is of great interest and you tell it so well.
I almost felt im there with you your descriptions of the events are so vivid.
I have imagined trying to contact a tgirl and some of what you've said about your experience is almost exactly how i imagined the events would unfold and how i would react and feel in that situation.
So im totally griped, i can hardly wait for the next installment.
Great work and thanks for taking the time (and the risk)

to tell your story, much appreciated.