I'm not gay. I had one gay experience while drunk with a friend. I thought, what the hell!? I hated it. I felt as though I needed to take a shower for days after the experience. My friend has asked me to "participate" with him several times since then, but I cannot and will not ever do that again. Even if I'm drunk, lol!
That being said, I did not know until recently that I am REALLY attracted to shemales. My favorite cousin had a sex change operation not too long ago. She (used to be he I guess) likes girls. This really confused me, but now I understand that is the way she feels. She was born a girl, but just had male genitals. She likes girls and that is what makes her happy. She used to be suicidal, but now all of those feelings are gone (since she had the operation). So, to me, she did the right thing by having a sex change.
After hearing this, I looked up shemales both pre op and post op. I was trying to understand why my best friend and closest family relative decided to do such a drastic change. While "investigating", I noticed that I am sooooooo attracted to shemales. At first, I kind of laughed and thought....."NO! They look just like girls! Therefore, I'm not gay and I don't like chicks that used to be dudes!"............
Right now, I'm in a wonderful relationship with a female. She's beautiful and everything that I've ever wanted. BUT, if I knew this before I got together with her, I would've pursued a relationship with either a female or shemale (which to me are females, but I have to be clear about things). My options would've been more open. I'm happy with who I am with though.
Now, when I look at porn, I like to look at females. Guys don't do it for me. BUT, almost every time that I look at porn, I will always check out shemales. There is something that makes my brain buzz while looking at shemales because I think they're beautiful (not all though! we like what we like).
I'll probably never experience sex with a shemale, because I want to spend the rest of my life with the girl that I am with and be monogamous. I'm happy with that. No regrets. BUT, if something happens to our relationship, you bet your ass that I would date a shemale and pursue a life together. But I wouldn't only pursue a shemale. I like girls. Some of them just so happen to have a dick! I'm an equal opportunity kind of guy.......
Sorry for the long post...but I'm glad to get this off my chest. I'm relieved that there are others out there that feel the same way. I hope you guys and gals accept me, and if I say something wrong...I'm sorry. I'm just trying to figure all of this out and accept myself for being...ME!
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