[tryonce1]

@franalexes - Yeah, I just kinda wish it could be real even if only for a while. Guess can't have my cake and eat it too. *sigh*

My anus is still bleeding a little bit every time I defecate but it only aches just a very small amount. I am yearning for another session but I just know it is going to be fake.

Ever since that experience, I really am beginning to understand how women feel when a man only wants them for their bodies and nothing more. It is a very crappy feeling.

On the other hand, though, I feel like I understand better the sacredness of (sexual) intimacy. I have little-to-no desire to masturbate, watch porn, or lust after beautiful strangers that I don't personally know and have a connection with. Just being in that submissive position and being dominated has revealed to my senses quite a lot.