Sounds strangely to me like one of these first experiences of self consciousness, identified as happening between 6 and 9 by modern psychology. I had mine in front of a fence, I remember it clearly: I was about to climb it and I just felt, suddenly, very big, I felt that those seven years elapsed since my birth had already stretched a long while and I had for the first time a definite feeling of the reality of my own life in duration. Every kid goes through it; it’s a normal stage of the development of the psyche. Some remember, some don’t. I find absolutely remarkable that you have lived yours in such a fashion, Princess, if it is indeed that precise experience we’re talking about. It would mean you have discovered yourself (your own self, your conscience) as a girl. It is another testimony of how deep a reality transsexualism is. It shows how little you have to do with what you feel deep down. We’re advancing faster and faster in both fields of endocrinology and neurology, and I’m sure we will soon find definite, positive elements to show that it is a biological condition. But already your beautiful post shows how profound this reality is. Beautiful post, Princess!

Lady Alana, your story is beautiful too. And the fact that you remember something so unimportant as an event also shows how deep this was already into you. I’m sure you probably could find many more to tell if you felt like it.

I any case, this is beautiful. I feel privileged to be a member of a site where women like you shares such private memories with people like me. We should have more of this. Princess Vagina, very good idea for a thread…